nothing to do
i have lived in raleigh for a year now, and only have two friends that live here. there's nothing for me to do except my chores, and i have no where to go on the weekends. i know that it's my falt that i dont have anyone to hang out with, its just that im not a very social person.i talk to sean on the phone, but some times i want to go somewhere and then there is no one to do anything with. and lately i've lost enthusiasm to do much of any thing...its all starting to fell quite pointless again. the only thing keeping me happy right now is sean. but i guess susan is right, im just being self-centered and bitchy and i'llget over it. i guess that it is self-centered to feel shitty because you make the people around you feel bad when you feel bad. but i just wish i could be happy when i am in raleigh, too. i mean i am always happy when i am with sean or talk to him, but i wish i was happy more.