got me down, and now i'm only singing for my health...
my life is coming together and falling apart at the same time. it makes no sense.
i'm in school. have a car. a cell phone. a job. possibly 2.
i have no friends. i'm really lonely. my mom's going back to rehab. i don't know where my little brother's going. i refuse to let him go to his father tho because he's insane. (i told my dad to take him. he's with michael now. which isn't a good environment....but my dad isn't really either. he needs to be away from all the alcohol and self hatred. and shaine too. god everything is so fucked up.) cait's parents are getting divorced. (they're like my other parents. i lived with them. i love them.) everything is falling apart. i don't understand it.
i'm not strong enough for all this. i can't just deal with it like always. i don't even know. i feel like one of these days i'm going to drown on my tears in my sleep.
8 years of therapy...lets make it 9. but home is so far away and i'm so very selfish.
i hate everything
i'm in school. have a car. a cell phone. a job. possibly 2.
i have no friends. i'm really lonely. my mom's going back to rehab. i don't know where my little brother's going. i refuse to let him go to his father tho because he's insane. (i told my dad to take him. he's with michael now. which isn't a good environment....but my dad isn't really either. he needs to be away from all the alcohol and self hatred. and shaine too. god everything is so fucked up.) cait's parents are getting divorced. (they're like my other parents. i lived with them. i love them.) everything is falling apart. i don't understand it.
i'm not strong enough for all this. i can't just deal with it like always. i don't even know. i feel like one of these days i'm going to drown on my tears in my sleep.
8 years of therapy...lets make it 9. but home is so far away and i'm so very selfish.
i hate everything