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Aug 08, 2006 23:16

my grandma's cancer got worse FAST.
its not just in her pancreas anymore its all over.
They don't know if chemo is even worth it because it would just make her feel more sick and it would only keep her around a few more months. i love her so much and i dont want to see her go but i also know that she's going to be ok no matter what. The thing that gets to me is that my mom is hurting and i cant do anything to help her all of my aunts and uncles are hurting and i hate to see them all like this, thats what hurts me! i couldnt help but cry.

dear journal,
please tell me what to do

my freinds are leaving and these weeks coming up are going to be so incredibly miserable for me. im asking you to forgive me now for crying. Im asking you now to forgive me for everything that i have ever done to you. Im asking you now to never forget me(that's my biggest fear, that you will find someone better and forget me).Im asking you now to never let the words "oh, yeah i remember her i havent talked to her in years" ever escape your mouth. Im asking you now never loose touch. Im asking you now dont leave me!
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