So close to home...
Wow! I really hate myself. I haven't updated my live journal since the second week I was down here. I suck at life. I'll be back in the wonderful little town of Endicott in 21 days in counting! Am I excited? Yes...and am I nervous/sad? Yes. It sucks I feared coming down here so much and now I'm fearing leaving. I miss all my friends back home but I'm going to miss all my friends down here...well the people I work with. Were all really close, all the boat captains. Next summer were planning a cruise its going to be kick ass. I hate the roommate situation. No offense to any of them but they can't clean I'm tired of that and they found that out the hard way. I'm thinking about doing another internship with Clarence and Bryana. Bree and I would get our own apartment and Clarence would get his with another roommmate. Maybe Maurice if he did it again. Who knows! We of course would ask for friendship boats again. That job definitely kicks ass!!! Drive for an hour get like a 2 hour break...drive for another hour get like a half hour break...yeah I'm so spoiled I'm going to be deprived when I get back to the hotel. Speaking of the hotel I'll be back there the 1st of June. I plan on working my ass of this summer making as much money as I can for school and for going out to visit Clarence ...as I'll be going out there for 2 weeks. If you all don't know Clarence is this totally amamzing person that I met while in the program. I so wasnt looking for a relationship when I came down here. I just wanted to have fun with all the people I met but its different with Clarence. He treats me good and we have a blast when were together. I dont know whats going to happen when we leave this place but everything happens for a reason and what will be will be. I try to take each moment and every day as it passes....I won't worry about what will happen in the future until it comes. I'm definitely willing as Clarence is as well to see how far this relationship can go. He's amazing and has made my time down here amazing he treats me like a queen and means the world to me. We've had such an awesome time going to the parks, eating at all the fancy places that were going too, staying at all our fancy hotels ;) we just have fun together and we make sense..hes even gotten me into sports...especially stub the swab! :)
This summer is going to be weird I already felt like I was on vacation the past like 3 and half months. Its going to be weird with out Clarence and all the friendship boat people. I'm going to miss being in florida well, Disney. Bree and I have a plan for this summer. I miss her so much! I miss hanging out with my girls...don't get me wrong i would hang out with Clarence all the time if I could and I usually do but I haven't made any close friends who are girls I mean aside from the girls I work with but we dont really hang out much outside of work. My parents are coming in like 4 days...this is so weird and this journal is so random. It's just all these thoughts just keep flowing out of my head. But thats what a journal is really.
Aww my roommates are watching meet the fockers and their having a wedding, I can't wait to get married. Oh well some day i suppose. I'll be heading up to Albany in the fall...well late August. I got the presidential scholarship so I have my choice of housing and i get $1000 a year for every year I go and i get all these other benefits as well. I'm going to look into more scholarships b/c my family really doesnt have the money. I can't wait to get back to the normal. I need to get back to the hotel and make REAL money. I need to walk down the street in NYC and not worry about making eye contact and being nice to anyone and really saying how i feel. I need to go to walmart late at night without it taking 20 minutes to get there b/c of god damn instruction...and i need to see my girls! and my kittens!! I'm ready to cry just sitting here thinking about how much I want to be home but how much...how so so much I dont want to leave. I hate this I'm in a catch 22. Don't want to stay but dont want to leave. Ahhh i hate this so much. School is stressing me out I wish I was done with BCC so I could just work my ass off this summer like get like 3 jobs and never sleep! I have to take 1 last history course at BCC only 2 nights a week but i rather just be done. Ok i'm done with this journal I need to get some rest tomorrow is going to be a long interesting night ;) so is the next 4 weeks its going to go by so quickly. I'll probably write more about my actually experience later on I just need to write down my thoughts for the evening. I'm sure Ill have plenty of time on my hands once I get back home. C'ya real soon... M.O.U.S.E
ok ok I'm really cheezy!
lots of love!
~Lindsay
This summer is going to be weird I already felt like I was on vacation the past like 3 and half months. Its going to be weird with out Clarence and all the friendship boat people. I'm going to miss being in florida well, Disney. Bree and I have a plan for this summer. I miss her so much! I miss hanging out with my girls...don't get me wrong i would hang out with Clarence all the time if I could and I usually do but I haven't made any close friends who are girls I mean aside from the girls I work with but we dont really hang out much outside of work. My parents are coming in like 4 days...this is so weird and this journal is so random. It's just all these thoughts just keep flowing out of my head. But thats what a journal is really.
Aww my roommates are watching meet the fockers and their having a wedding, I can't wait to get married. Oh well some day i suppose. I'll be heading up to Albany in the fall...well late August. I got the presidential scholarship so I have my choice of housing and i get $1000 a year for every year I go and i get all these other benefits as well. I'm going to look into more scholarships b/c my family really doesnt have the money. I can't wait to get back to the normal. I need to get back to the hotel and make REAL money. I need to walk down the street in NYC and not worry about making eye contact and being nice to anyone and really saying how i feel. I need to go to walmart late at night without it taking 20 minutes to get there b/c of god damn instruction...and i need to see my girls! and my kittens!! I'm ready to cry just sitting here thinking about how much I want to be home but how much...how so so much I dont want to leave. I hate this I'm in a catch 22. Don't want to stay but dont want to leave. Ahhh i hate this so much. School is stressing me out I wish I was done with BCC so I could just work my ass off this summer like get like 3 jobs and never sleep! I have to take 1 last history course at BCC only 2 nights a week but i rather just be done. Ok i'm done with this journal I need to get some rest tomorrow is going to be a long interesting night ;) so is the next 4 weeks its going to go by so quickly. I'll probably write more about my actually experience later on I just need to write down my thoughts for the evening. I'm sure Ill have plenty of time on my hands once I get back home. C'ya real soon... M.O.U.S.E
ok ok I'm really cheezy!
lots of love!
~Lindsay