If that's all then there's nothing I can do
Ok the point system is fun, it really makes me feel good to know that I could just take away these make believe points that judge his actions (from what I see). It's also sad, cuz he doesn't have anything really going for him but I did write this poem to make me feel better hehe...the only reason I feel like...off...is because of certain things my friends say. I feel so sad everytime he's insulted...I just kind of realized that. It makes me sad, cuz I, like a dork, still have feelings for him and I don't think of him in a negative way, well only when he makes stupid ass comments and does stupid ass things. I know the GALs are trying to make me feel better and 99.99999999% they always do, but that weird .000000001% is like saddening. Why is that when I don't think of him or talk about him, even if I pass right by him, someone has to mention him making me crash from the high I was feeling. I think I do good with concealing my feelings most of the time...but there's only so much I can hide. I know I talk about him 15/7 leaving only nine hours where I don't think of him including dreams...big improvement :-)....but it just bothers me when my mom brings him up...or when one of my friends wants to ask him questions...or when he answers questions for other girls...kind of like not even telling me whats really going on...why do they get to know...but see I'm rambling...ok ok here's the poem...I'm done.
Who woulda thunk it
I never knew he'd sink that low
I have to take a bit
to see what he has to show
Whatever was I thinking?
I thought things were ok
patience is slowly shrinking
and I wont be able to say
What I really want
is nothing difficult
It's something that will haunt
and cause me to insult
the very thing I crave
Oh why oh why have you done this?
I thought I could be brave
I hope and hope and wish
that this will soon be over
Time will heal this wound
and tell me to go slower
Not to rush things next time
but sleep and watch it wind
wait and reach the prime
that will once again bind
I think I'll find another
and not take that time I need
because I'm about to smother
the life all out of this deed
People are starting to say
get over this, okay?
I know I'm really trying
but its hard when he aint crying
I think he has to suffer
for what he's put me through
It's wrong I know, my lover
is such a stupid pooh
He needs to learn a lesson
but I wont want to teach it
I think I'll try to lessen
the hate that just won't quit
But its hard you know
when you think that he
could possibly still love you.
Who woulda thunk it
I never knew he'd sink that low
I have to take a bit
to see what he has to show
Whatever was I thinking?
I thought things were ok
patience is slowly shrinking
and I wont be able to say
What I really want
is nothing difficult
It's something that will haunt
and cause me to insult
the very thing I crave
Oh why oh why have you done this?
I thought I could be brave
I hope and hope and wish
that this will soon be over
Time will heal this wound
and tell me to go slower
Not to rush things next time
but sleep and watch it wind
wait and reach the prime
that will once again bind
I think I'll find another
and not take that time I need
because I'm about to smother
the life all out of this deed
People are starting to say
get over this, okay?
I know I'm really trying
but its hard when he aint crying
I think he has to suffer
for what he's put me through
It's wrong I know, my lover
is such a stupid pooh
He needs to learn a lesson
but I wont want to teach it
I think I'll try to lessen
the hate that just won't quit
But its hard you know
when you think that he
could possibly still love you.