How far can Love go?
I just got off the phone with my friend Liz and it really made me think. I havent been home more then 2 days and I have been bombarded with relationship issues. My best friend pratik's new girl imed me the second i got home questioning my feelings to pratik and telling me i was her biggest threat. Liz and her girlfriend ash, who were madly in love and goign to get married, are having major problems and breaking up because ash "doesn't love her to the extent that she used to". My Dad's best friend's from childhood who have been married 20+ years are getting a divorce b/c the wife "doesnt love him passionatly" anymore. It really just makes me think. I mean whta is love??? Tonight at dinner my grandmother looked at her husband who was quietly eating away at his salad and she goes "you are done give it to me." He calmly handed it over...then she gave it back b/c it had bacon in it-she yelled at him for giving it to him and made a rude comment. He just took the salad back and continued to eat. I asked him about it later and he said "its just noise. We love each other. That was a dangerous moment but everyone fights." Just noise. Hmmm So what justifies this "noise" and what justifies ending a relationship?? I mean clearly they are in love...but how far can it go??
Ive been thinking alto recently and I know for a fact I was never "in love" with Paul. He will always have a special place in my life, but honestly i was never in love with him. And to think abotu it honestly...I have said that word too much. I know i should have never said it to Roddie. I still believe that I love John and I honestly feel my heart breaking because he still wont talk to me. It just really makes me wonder. Relationships just really make me wonder.
My mom needs the computer and my mind has kind of gone blank. I really dont know what else to say...except for these people are so strong. Liz is going to be ok and my dad's friend mark told me today he was going to be fine. So they survive. But could they survive if they had never had that love? Was it really a love??
This shit scares me to no end. Maybe its good John wont talk to me. I dont know if I'd be able to survive this shit. The only love I know for sure is that i hold for my parents and my friends. There is no doubt in my mind that I love Ben, kristen, kristina, amanda,becca,meghan, collleen, liz and tia. No doubt in my mind. There are more too. I have opened my heart so many people; most of wish have accepted it nicely. And to those that pushed me away...and to those that I love and shouldnt...o well. I wonder though, it really makes me wonder. When love isnt strong enough. When??
Ive been thinking alto recently and I know for a fact I was never "in love" with Paul. He will always have a special place in my life, but honestly i was never in love with him. And to think abotu it honestly...I have said that word too much. I know i should have never said it to Roddie. I still believe that I love John and I honestly feel my heart breaking because he still wont talk to me. It just really makes me wonder. Relationships just really make me wonder.
My mom needs the computer and my mind has kind of gone blank. I really dont know what else to say...except for these people are so strong. Liz is going to be ok and my dad's friend mark told me today he was going to be fine. So they survive. But could they survive if they had never had that love? Was it really a love??
This shit scares me to no end. Maybe its good John wont talk to me. I dont know if I'd be able to survive this shit. The only love I know for sure is that i hold for my parents and my friends. There is no doubt in my mind that I love Ben, kristen, kristina, amanda,becca,meghan, collleen, liz and tia. No doubt in my mind. There are more too. I have opened my heart so many people; most of wish have accepted it nicely. And to those that pushed me away...and to those that I love and shouldnt...o well. I wonder though, it really makes me wonder. When love isnt strong enough. When??