"Loaded god complex cock it and pull it"
I have been very off lately. I am not sure what has been going on but i havnt been myself and im not sure i like it... but of course the more i think about it what is "myself". Ever since starting college i have had to do a lot of growing up, become more "mature" (thats a laugh). I am all for growing up but it always seems like there is a price for it. Somone always exspecting more from you. Always looking to make sure you arnt going to fuck up again like they exspect you to. Then of course when you do they are right there to point out all your faults. Now those of you who care to read this i am not just talking about my parents, so its not them. Im just getting sick off dreading things. Im sick of trying to be more outgoing so i wont be alone in a few months. And I hate answering to people that i shouldnt have to answer to... I hate and love growing up, but i want things to stop for a while so i can re-asess what i want right now.