Bored at work...
Hello.
I've been reading over other people'e livejournals recently and it's nice to see that people are so ambitious now a days. Particularly Dan, Jordan and Evan. I've been wanting to hang with people who have more going for them than a crappy job that affords them enough money to go to packed dance clubs on the weekend to get drunk and oggle at girls. For you see, in my life, there are two distinct groups of people who I hang out with, and I find myself hopping ship between the two more and more often these days.
My first group of friends are the kinda of people who you'll see at loud dance clubs downtown. They're fun people to hang out with if you just want to go get shitty drunk, not talk about anything particularly interesting, and really just mingle amongst them dabling in conversation. Don't get me wrong, that's cool! And there are some nights where I really do just want to go out and catch up quickly with a large group of people. But recently I've been finding myself wasting time with them. I really hate going out to big noisy places where you have to scream to talk, booze is expensive, and the only way to have fun is to pretend that you are! On those nights when you're with a close group of people, or not in a party atmosphere, that I'd much prefer to be at a quiet pub with them, just talking about things more meaningful than my shirt, or stories of times that we had in the past. What makes a night truly fun is not so much where you go, but who you're with and how the conversation is. If you think about it, what else is there to do at a bar? It's not like it's fucking Gym Jam, the only thing you have to keep yourself entertained is other people, and the primary way to gain enjoyment out of other people is to pick their brains through good conversation, and you just can't do that in a noisey dance hall. It'd be one thing if we just went there to dance and pick up, but I find myself spending most of my time weeding through crowds or just sitting, drinking, looking around, not saying much, and thinking "I wish I were coding". It's fun every now and then to go to places like that, but when you go with people who you see pretty much every day, and when you don't really do much there (for GOD knows what reason), then it's not much fun really. I find myself enjoying the pre-drinking, or car ride there, a lot more, only because we're actually talking and interacting. This is the group I will call "Group A". I like hanging out with them, and I enjoy the company of each and every one of them.
Group B is a totally different group. Chances are you're one of them if you're reading this. When I hang out with people from Group B, I don't think there's ever a moment when I'm not having fun. Simple as that. We usually do some pretty low-key things compared to what classicaly be considered large by group A, but it doesn't matter, because when you're actually chillin' with them whether it be in the car, in a club, in a bus shelter, in a crappy restaurant, it's ALL the same because they're a fun bunch of people who actually have INTERESTING things to say. They're more down to earth, and they all have different takes on things which makes mixing it up with them all the more interesting.
It's a simple description, obviously more complimentary that the description of group A, but that's the way I see it. Group A to me has basically turned into "Let's go to a club and follow the girls around", and when the guys are around it's only fun if you have old stories to tell as well. It just feels exclusive. It just feels like an environment where you can't be yourself at all, where you have to watch what you say and what you do, where individualism is almost frowned upon (to a certain degree).
You'll notice that I'm not naming names when describing both groups. It's less about particular names, and more about the feel of the night, although that is directly related to who's there, but that's not an exact science. Group B are the awsome nights where there's not much of a story to tell the next day, but you had a fucking kick ass fun night, and Group A is the kind of night were you can tell an accurate description of what happened, not a lot of funny or cool stuff happened, but it's a night you can put a label and a lid on, but it was largely just a waste of time. Group A is full of shallow, uninteresting people, and Group B is full of individuals with idea's and self confidence and a sense of dynamic.
I think the reason I found myself drawn to the Group A before. Now I find just the opposite, and I'm glad for that reason. I think that before, people from Group B kind of saw me as maybe a two face, or someone who wasn't real, or who wasn't really a friend, and that's find by me, 'cause I felt that way. They might have seen me as someone who has priorities that don't involve them. They have this detest for people who act phony in large groups and I think that I had that aire about me for a long while, but it truly is just the way I acted, nice or not is up to you to decide. I spent most of my time with group A, and the little time I spent with group B would make it almost seem proportionatly equal when it came to terms of quality. They might have seen me as someone who thought they were better than other people. Those are their opinions and for someone to say that someone else's opinion is wrong, is retarted.
This whole journal entry has basically been a way for me to verbalize what I've been thinking for the longest time. Group A is bullshit, Group B is where the fun is at, fuck what Group A says.
There are so many more bad things to say about the way group A acts, but I'll leave that for a time when I have less distractions, and I'am able to clearly think and write.
That's about it for this journal update. For those of you who are keeping up to date on www.l33t.ca there is some news to report.
- The AMD Thunderbird chip we've been using is crapping out on us every few days, despite having no side panel on the case and brand new heat sink. I've fucking hated that thing since I bought that Orb fan for it, which did nothing, and hating it EVEN more since it burned it up the Orb heat sink. Thunderbirds had a very bad rep for being heat/power whores, this is perfect evidence to back up that rep.
- New CPU will be a 1.6 Ghz Athlon XP, which I've heard run much cooler. It should also speed up the site which has been going a BIT slowly recently (still the fastest free host out there though!) due to a strained 800 Mhz piece of shit CPU.
- Pornbot is back up now for beta testing. You can head onto our new, face lifted, site and sign up for a new account a browse around, make some comments and rate our bitches!!
- When the l33t.ca server is back up (after the CPU upgrade), I'll be ripping out the guts of the pornbot user database. Each user is stored as a text file on the server now, and from my experience dealing with a similar user system on l33t.ca's hosting system, I know that it can fragment the shit out of a disk and cause the whole system to be larger than it needs to be (for fragmentation reasons, each file takes up a sector on the disk which is, I think, 32k, even though the file is only a few bytes big). I'll be changing the system to a shiny new mySQL database, and will be ripping the guts out of pb.cgi
That's about all for now. My brain is fried.
I've been reading over other people'e livejournals recently and it's nice to see that people are so ambitious now a days. Particularly Dan, Jordan and Evan. I've been wanting to hang with people who have more going for them than a crappy job that affords them enough money to go to packed dance clubs on the weekend to get drunk and oggle at girls. For you see, in my life, there are two distinct groups of people who I hang out with, and I find myself hopping ship between the two more and more often these days.
My first group of friends are the kinda of people who you'll see at loud dance clubs downtown. They're fun people to hang out with if you just want to go get shitty drunk, not talk about anything particularly interesting, and really just mingle amongst them dabling in conversation. Don't get me wrong, that's cool! And there are some nights where I really do just want to go out and catch up quickly with a large group of people. But recently I've been finding myself wasting time with them. I really hate going out to big noisy places where you have to scream to talk, booze is expensive, and the only way to have fun is to pretend that you are! On those nights when you're with a close group of people, or not in a party atmosphere, that I'd much prefer to be at a quiet pub with them, just talking about things more meaningful than my shirt, or stories of times that we had in the past. What makes a night truly fun is not so much where you go, but who you're with and how the conversation is. If you think about it, what else is there to do at a bar? It's not like it's fucking Gym Jam, the only thing you have to keep yourself entertained is other people, and the primary way to gain enjoyment out of other people is to pick their brains through good conversation, and you just can't do that in a noisey dance hall. It'd be one thing if we just went there to dance and pick up, but I find myself spending most of my time weeding through crowds or just sitting, drinking, looking around, not saying much, and thinking "I wish I were coding". It's fun every now and then to go to places like that, but when you go with people who you see pretty much every day, and when you don't really do much there (for GOD knows what reason), then it's not much fun really. I find myself enjoying the pre-drinking, or car ride there, a lot more, only because we're actually talking and interacting. This is the group I will call "Group A". I like hanging out with them, and I enjoy the company of each and every one of them.
Group B is a totally different group. Chances are you're one of them if you're reading this. When I hang out with people from Group B, I don't think there's ever a moment when I'm not having fun. Simple as that. We usually do some pretty low-key things compared to what classicaly be considered large by group A, but it doesn't matter, because when you're actually chillin' with them whether it be in the car, in a club, in a bus shelter, in a crappy restaurant, it's ALL the same because they're a fun bunch of people who actually have INTERESTING things to say. They're more down to earth, and they all have different takes on things which makes mixing it up with them all the more interesting.
It's a simple description, obviously more complimentary that the description of group A, but that's the way I see it. Group A to me has basically turned into "Let's go to a club and follow the girls around", and when the guys are around it's only fun if you have old stories to tell as well. It just feels exclusive. It just feels like an environment where you can't be yourself at all, where you have to watch what you say and what you do, where individualism is almost frowned upon (to a certain degree).
You'll notice that I'm not naming names when describing both groups. It's less about particular names, and more about the feel of the night, although that is directly related to who's there, but that's not an exact science. Group B are the awsome nights where there's not much of a story to tell the next day, but you had a fucking kick ass fun night, and Group A is the kind of night were you can tell an accurate description of what happened, not a lot of funny or cool stuff happened, but it's a night you can put a label and a lid on, but it was largely just a waste of time. Group A is full of shallow, uninteresting people, and Group B is full of individuals with idea's and self confidence and a sense of dynamic.
I think the reason I found myself drawn to the Group A before. Now I find just the opposite, and I'm glad for that reason. I think that before, people from Group B kind of saw me as maybe a two face, or someone who wasn't real, or who wasn't really a friend, and that's find by me, 'cause I felt that way. They might have seen me as someone who has priorities that don't involve them. They have this detest for people who act phony in large groups and I think that I had that aire about me for a long while, but it truly is just the way I acted, nice or not is up to you to decide. I spent most of my time with group A, and the little time I spent with group B would make it almost seem proportionatly equal when it came to terms of quality. They might have seen me as someone who thought they were better than other people. Those are their opinions and for someone to say that someone else's opinion is wrong, is retarted.
This whole journal entry has basically been a way for me to verbalize what I've been thinking for the longest time. Group A is bullshit, Group B is where the fun is at, fuck what Group A says.
There are so many more bad things to say about the way group A acts, but I'll leave that for a time when I have less distractions, and I'am able to clearly think and write.
That's about it for this journal update. For those of you who are keeping up to date on www.l33t.ca there is some news to report.
- The AMD Thunderbird chip we've been using is crapping out on us every few days, despite having no side panel on the case and brand new heat sink. I've fucking hated that thing since I bought that Orb fan for it, which did nothing, and hating it EVEN more since it burned it up the Orb heat sink. Thunderbirds had a very bad rep for being heat/power whores, this is perfect evidence to back up that rep.
- New CPU will be a 1.6 Ghz Athlon XP, which I've heard run much cooler. It should also speed up the site which has been going a BIT slowly recently (still the fastest free host out there though!) due to a strained 800 Mhz piece of shit CPU.
- Pornbot is back up now for beta testing. You can head onto our new, face lifted, site and sign up for a new account a browse around, make some comments and rate our bitches!!
- When the l33t.ca server is back up (after the CPU upgrade), I'll be ripping out the guts of the pornbot user database. Each user is stored as a text file on the server now, and from my experience dealing with a similar user system on l33t.ca's hosting system, I know that it can fragment the shit out of a disk and cause the whole system to be larger than it needs to be (for fragmentation reasons, each file takes up a sector on the disk which is, I think, 32k, even though the file is only a few bytes big). I'll be changing the system to a shiny new mySQL database, and will be ripping the guts out of pb.cgi
That's about all for now. My brain is fried.