monday wowness...
so today was just one of those crazy days...where it felt like God was truly looking down on me...getting the last spot in the parking lot...not once but twice!!! i just felt truly blessed today...going to the gym and seeing two of my fraternity pledges there and them letting me kick it with them...and then the incredible talk with ms. cool...how can i forget about that...i dont think ive connected that well with someone since my high school days maybe longer...god it was too good to be true? Who is He that answered a simple prayer. I feel blessed beyond all measures... I just feel so eternally blessed its overwhelming. And then kicking it with my room,ate and his friend and getting to reconnect and spend some time with someone who is supposed to be my best friend. God forgive me for starting to give up on our friendship. It reblossomed tonight with the 3 of us. All it took was one day. Is this the girl I have waited sooo long for? I don't know...but God I don't know if I'll find another girl in my current setting that can match what she offers...her personality her exuberance her obvious beauty and her inherent deepness...all things I have looked for and there they were tonight right in front of my eyes. It's too good to be true isn't it...
I felt like I've waited centuries for a day like this and it finally came...of course being me I overanalyzed it and tried to downplay it, but as mother said seize the moment and savor it while you can. Stop waiting for that perfect day and MAKE it happen. Today it all clicked...That rubix cube of life was finally completed for one night and after tonight I will get another rubix cube and try to unmystify its complexities. The truth is I have God at my side. I am eternally grateful for what God has done for me. Even if it turns out that somehow he is just this imaginary figure our human race embedded into our heads, it sure as hell(haha paradox sry) has made me so much more of a happier person. more accepting, more patient(still long way to go there but better than I used to be), less angrier. Maybe still a bit depressed and empty, but tonight hinted at some possible keys that could unlock the doors to get out of these conditions. I need to distance myself from the demons of my past and bask in the glory of the NOW. Thank you God for protecting me from all that you have and most of all thank you for giving me the opportunity to serve you. Tonight I will prey for something and see if God thinks it is right. Goodnite angelic day may this day give me the strength to ride out the everchanging wave of this week and the weeks to come.
I felt like I've waited centuries for a day like this and it finally came...of course being me I overanalyzed it and tried to downplay it, but as mother said seize the moment and savor it while you can. Stop waiting for that perfect day and MAKE it happen. Today it all clicked...That rubix cube of life was finally completed for one night and after tonight I will get another rubix cube and try to unmystify its complexities. The truth is I have God at my side. I am eternally grateful for what God has done for me. Even if it turns out that somehow he is just this imaginary figure our human race embedded into our heads, it sure as hell(haha paradox sry) has made me so much more of a happier person. more accepting, more patient(still long way to go there but better than I used to be), less angrier. Maybe still a bit depressed and empty, but tonight hinted at some possible keys that could unlock the doors to get out of these conditions. I need to distance myself from the demons of my past and bask in the glory of the NOW. Thank you God for protecting me from all that you have and most of all thank you for giving me the opportunity to serve you. Tonight I will prey for something and see if God thinks it is right. Goodnite angelic day may this day give me the strength to ride out the everchanging wave of this week and the weeks to come.