I forget that to others on the outside, I may still look like a normal person.
Bad news first. I'm still confused out of my mind. Lot's of things are happening. I'm stuffing it all inside, and I feel so completely alone with it. Drug users (maybe cocaine?) sometimes experience formication, which is feeling like they have bugs crawling on their skin...I'm feeling similar, except, I have this feeling inside of my body, in my stomach and in my head. I used to do destructive things when I felt like this, but now, I'm just sitting here...trying to plan out my night so I can get my mind off of things. I have nothing to do besides work.
On the other hand, I'm doing a formula one duathlon on Saturday at Mendon Ponds Park. So it goes: 2 mile run, 10 mile bike, 1 mile run, 10 mile bike, 2 mile run. I've been pretty nervous about this, up until today. Today, I was amazing. I took a spinning class, lifted weights for a while, then came home and biked about 12 miles, then ran two. I'm so excited now, and I actually think I might be able to do this. Now I'm more confident, especially about the running part. It seems my endurance has kicked up a bit, and however it happened, it's just what I needed. I'm still feeling high from all of this, and it was a couple hours ago. Woo. Excellent.
On the other hand, I'm doing a formula one duathlon on Saturday at Mendon Ponds Park. So it goes: 2 mile run, 10 mile bike, 1 mile run, 10 mile bike, 2 mile run. I've been pretty nervous about this, up until today. Today, I was amazing. I took a spinning class, lifted weights for a while, then came home and biked about 12 miles, then ran two. I'm so excited now, and I actually think I might be able to do this. Now I'm more confident, especially about the running part. It seems my endurance has kicked up a bit, and however it happened, it's just what I needed. I'm still feeling high from all of this, and it was a couple hours ago. Woo. Excellent.