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I have been happier/more content/more joyful than I think I have been ever the past few days. God has blessed me so much and has changed my heart so much. It's been a time of intense growth and deepening in my faith which I had been praying for after a long, hard dry time. I had just started to rely on me and been so self focused. Then God used some wonderful women in my life to show me a right view of me and a right view of God. It was so subtle, yet so monumental at the same time.
I remember all through Jr and Sr High waiting for retreats and camps and relying on the "spiritual highs" and going from one to another. It was up and down all the time. BUT God has been using normal, everyday things to change me. I love that. It's been so encouraging and I don't want to forget these past few days ever.
God has taught me contentment and I pray that pride does not come in. That is a fear now, but I am not worried about it. PRAISE GOD! I feel like a different person. Even when people talk about dating or getting engaged I have felt content with where I am. I don't feel like I need to get married, now or ever. It's rediculous. It's the first time in my life and it's been 5 days now. That's a milestone in my life. It's been a time where I have to make a fresh commitment to God everyday. That doesn't mean I wouldn't be happy getting married and I may feel differently later (as in wanting to be married really badly), but God has granted me freedom from those desires and fears. It's been so freeing. God is huge and is working in great ways. My prayer is that I don't become suseptible to sin in other areas which can ofter become the case in areas of growth. Pride is so easy to come by as is being self focused or having false-humility.
God is good and He is working. I don't feel guilt for feeling this way when there is so much going on, and for those of you who know me that's a big thing. Especially when it seems everyone around me is experiencing so many trials and struggles. I am not saying that I don't have other areas that definitely need work.
Life continues to move and so does God. We all need to remember not to get caught up so that we miss what He's doing. Some advice that a mentor gave me and I will never forget, "Don't get so caught up trying to be a blessing that you miss one of God's blessing that is right under your nose."
I remember all through Jr and Sr High waiting for retreats and camps and relying on the "spiritual highs" and going from one to another. It was up and down all the time. BUT God has been using normal, everyday things to change me. I love that. It's been so encouraging and I don't want to forget these past few days ever.
God has taught me contentment and I pray that pride does not come in. That is a fear now, but I am not worried about it. PRAISE GOD! I feel like a different person. Even when people talk about dating or getting engaged I have felt content with where I am. I don't feel like I need to get married, now or ever. It's rediculous. It's the first time in my life and it's been 5 days now. That's a milestone in my life. It's been a time where I have to make a fresh commitment to God everyday. That doesn't mean I wouldn't be happy getting married and I may feel differently later (as in wanting to be married really badly), but God has granted me freedom from those desires and fears. It's been so freeing. God is huge and is working in great ways. My prayer is that I don't become suseptible to sin in other areas which can ofter become the case in areas of growth. Pride is so easy to come by as is being self focused or having false-humility.
God is good and He is working. I don't feel guilt for feeling this way when there is so much going on, and for those of you who know me that's a big thing. Especially when it seems everyone around me is experiencing so many trials and struggles. I am not saying that I don't have other areas that definitely need work.
Life continues to move and so does God. We all need to remember not to get caught up so that we miss what He's doing. Some advice that a mentor gave me and I will never forget, "Don't get so caught up trying to be a blessing that you miss one of God's blessing that is right under your nose."