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soo..i learned no to get my hopes up for something like that ever againnn bc they always end up like this...not good. i really thought it was gonna work this time..
umm..yesterday was alright..we finished selling ads and whatnot..and i kinna had a bad feeling about things all day but i didnt really think anything of it till i got home and heard the bad news..then everything was HORRIBLE..i talked to some people and i wasnt happy..i didnt sleep @ all bc i stayed up crying all night..then today was okay for a little while i guess..i went shopping w\ my mom bc i thought it would help me keep my mind off things but i kept seeing\hearing things that reminded me of him..so it didnt help much..then i had to go take some pics. w\ schoon for some guy @ gieco direct for his ad in our football program..he took like 500 pics. of us..he scared me. thenn i went tanning and every song i heard made me sad...so i went shopping some more..didnt help. so i came home and got ready bc kathy invited some people over to watch the mtv movie awards...but i got ready too fast so i left early and i was driving around and somehow i ended up @ the park that i went to w\ him..and i sat on the little bridge that we laid on and i cried for a long time..then some people came so i left..and i drove more..then i went to vaughn bc nobody was there and i cried more..then people came there too so i left..and drove more..then kathy called me and i went over there and watched the mtv movie awards w\ her and sarah..then shawn came over and we went to his house for a few mins. then we went to bueno..then we went to red bud and we were swingin on the swings..then my mom called me and i came home...and cried. then my good ol friend justin miller from clyde called bc he somehow knew what had happened..weird. so i got angry and yelled and cried to him for a while till he told me i was depressed and he worried about me..thanks. then i read some stuff to him that was bothering me and i cried more...then i stopped bc i felt bad bc his grandma just died and that's wayyyy worse than this crap...and i'd rather try to help him feel better..but he insisted that i did the whining about my problems bc he didnt feel like talking about his yet...i'm glad he's my friend.
i love the few friends that i have! thanks so much for caring..and listening to me whine and cry and get mad and stuff..and thanks for doing everything possible to try and make me feel better...idk what i'd do without you guys..i love every single one of you! and delorean just came up w\ another one of her genius plans...oh boy do i love her!
i think i'm gonna go now..bc i'm tired....reallllllll tired. bye.
umm..yesterday was alright..we finished selling ads and whatnot..and i kinna had a bad feeling about things all day but i didnt really think anything of it till i got home and heard the bad news..then everything was HORRIBLE..i talked to some people and i wasnt happy..i didnt sleep @ all bc i stayed up crying all night..then today was okay for a little while i guess..i went shopping w\ my mom bc i thought it would help me keep my mind off things but i kept seeing\hearing things that reminded me of him..so it didnt help much..then i had to go take some pics. w\ schoon for some guy @ gieco direct for his ad in our football program..he took like 500 pics. of us..he scared me. thenn i went tanning and every song i heard made me sad...so i went shopping some more..didnt help. so i came home and got ready bc kathy invited some people over to watch the mtv movie awards...but i got ready too fast so i left early and i was driving around and somehow i ended up @ the park that i went to w\ him..and i sat on the little bridge that we laid on and i cried for a long time..then some people came so i left..and i drove more..then i went to vaughn bc nobody was there and i cried more..then people came there too so i left..and drove more..then kathy called me and i went over there and watched the mtv movie awards w\ her and sarah..then shawn came over and we went to his house for a few mins. then we went to bueno..then we went to red bud and we were swingin on the swings..then my mom called me and i came home...and cried. then my good ol friend justin miller from clyde called bc he somehow knew what had happened..weird. so i got angry and yelled and cried to him for a while till he told me i was depressed and he worried about me..thanks. then i read some stuff to him that was bothering me and i cried more...then i stopped bc i felt bad bc his grandma just died and that's wayyyy worse than this crap...and i'd rather try to help him feel better..but he insisted that i did the whining about my problems bc he didnt feel like talking about his yet...i'm glad he's my friend.
i love the few friends that i have! thanks so much for caring..and listening to me whine and cry and get mad and stuff..and thanks for doing everything possible to try and make me feel better...idk what i'd do without you guys..i love every single one of you! and delorean just came up w\ another one of her genius plans...oh boy do i love her!
i think i'm gonna go now..bc i'm tired....reallllllll tired. bye.