...Colette I Advise You Not To Read This...
Well, yeh the thoughts of having to leave Laura behind when I move to Manchester is proving to be very hard for me *cries* because well yeh its true I love her *sighs* I just dont want to leave her I know she ain't mine anymore but I am not too sure what I would do with out her :o( n with her saying tonight that when she said that she didnt want me n stuff & didnt want to be with me she was just trying to convince herself that she didn't but she actually really did want me I was stuck :o| I didnt know what to say to her anymore :o( but all I said was that I was like that with her at one point but I gave up doing that because there was no point on pretendin what I knew was most def true n that was that I love her n wanted her in my life...forever! God you are all prob thinking when is going to be the day I stop talking about how I love Laura & want her...I dont think that will ever happen until I either have her has mine forever n if that doesnt happen then nope I wont stop talking about her because she is my first love...my only love...they say you only have one chance on love & well I truely think that she was my chance of love which I have lost now for good prob :o( once I go to Manchester I am not sure whether I would be able to keep incontact with her unles I was sayin that she was mine :'o( but I doubt that would happen as I kno she doesnt trust me anymore & I dont blame her either after what I done (still aint forgive myself...so I dont expect her to hav) but at the same time I don't think I could go through my life without her in it now that she is here :'o( love is such a confusin thing :'o( but I know its one thing that I have for Laura & that I want to spend forever with her but I know that is the one thing I will prob never have *cries* I love you Laura :o(