Why can't we be ourselves like we were yesterday.
I'm not a big fan of people sitting here and writing their whole drama and life in soul in this livejournal thing, considering everyone can see it. But you know this is a little bit of a different post. Kind of like Mike's.
The past four years of highschool were fantastic. I made new friends, lost old one's, became closer with others, matured in everyway, tried new things, won awards, basically had some of the best time in my life. But as they always say that's just the beginining, its not even the real world yet.
This past summer, i think i have matured more in a summer than in four years. I relized i am going into a whole new world. Going to SAC, yah its a small little community college, but i can not just walk in class and know people and be able to sit down and goof off, as i have in the past. Watching my friends leave, having to work a job with actually work involved. I can no longer sit their in class and mess around. Its no longer highschool.
I relized that the past few months of highschool i changed group of friends, and I myself have changed. I kept telling my self i had not but i knew i did. I lost some of my really goodfriends, faught with a lot of people. And to them i would like to say i am sorry, i am not here asking you to be my friend. Just know i am sorry.
People grow up you know.
Even though i am so scared to fully growup actually haveing for worry about bills, managing money, and getting all the responsiblities it has to become an adult, i am prepareing my self everyday.
The whole hour years of highschool i would sit there and complain that my mom would never let me do anything, she would never let me stay out past midnight, she would always be on my ass to work hard and make the best of it. I always thought she was just being a pain in the ass but i know why she did it.
So to all the younger ones. The ones still in highschool, do not sit there and complain that parents do not let you go out everyonce in a while. They have reasons for everything. Do not sit there and say "I cant wait till i graduate so i can leave this place." Trust me when that time comes so many things are running thru your head, and your going to be so scared. So enjoy the best times of your life now, and never regreat one thing.