neverending circle
it's always the same.
make it stop. i can't go through this again.
i don't think i'll make it out this time.
i just can't.
why can't it be different this time? just this one time.
if you know it won't work out, then i don't want it to start.
i'm never ready. never will be.
i don't think i was ever cut out for this stuff.
ugh, i feel so dumb and foolish right now.
i wish i could take all of these thoughts and emotions and put them towards a better use.
and by that i mean the DI project. i'm still lacking the words and inspiration, but now it's because they're all being focused towards something else.
fuck. just make it stop.
i'd rather feel nothing, than any of this.
make it stop. i can't go through this again.
i don't think i'll make it out this time.
i just can't.
why can't it be different this time? just this one time.
if you know it won't work out, then i don't want it to start.
i'm never ready. never will be.
i don't think i was ever cut out for this stuff.
ugh, i feel so dumb and foolish right now.
i wish i could take all of these thoughts and emotions and put them towards a better use.
and by that i mean the DI project. i'm still lacking the words and inspiration, but now it's because they're all being focused towards something else.
fuck. just make it stop.
i'd rather feel nothing, than any of this.