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i have a question? how do you know your in love? how do u know that its the " greatest feeling ever" love?
i find myself wanting to sleep alot, i dont know if its to not face whats "out there" or if its just me being actually tired cause if you didnt already know this about me i am somewhat of an insomniac. my average bed time is about 3:00 am every night and sleep till 9:00. im sure its that but i cant help but not want to see whats comming my way. i dont want anbody to be worried about me, all in all i guess im ok, its just sometimes i do feel like a wreck, like i have no control on anything thats happening to me. i do things or go places and then afterwards im just like "what just happened". i dont know it probably sounds really weird, but im just explainning it the best way i know how. i guess i fear the future, just very apprehensive to it, because im scared of not being the man and not being able to do the things expected of me. im not goin to ask you to pray for me or give me words of wisdome only because honestly i have no idea whats up with me its just blah. and because i hate the "i hope everything is ok" and the "i'll pray for you" because lets be honest we might think about that person for that time when we learn about them but afterwards its just something in the back of our heads. i appreciate them but this is not a pitty party. this is just me and whats happening to me right now.
anyway. i hope you guys are doing good though, i dont like to be the rain on a sunny day.\
-b i hope it gets better than this.
i find myself wanting to sleep alot, i dont know if its to not face whats "out there" or if its just me being actually tired cause if you didnt already know this about me i am somewhat of an insomniac. my average bed time is about 3:00 am every night and sleep till 9:00. im sure its that but i cant help but not want to see whats comming my way. i dont want anbody to be worried about me, all in all i guess im ok, its just sometimes i do feel like a wreck, like i have no control on anything thats happening to me. i do things or go places and then afterwards im just like "what just happened". i dont know it probably sounds really weird, but im just explainning it the best way i know how. i guess i fear the future, just very apprehensive to it, because im scared of not being the man and not being able to do the things expected of me. im not goin to ask you to pray for me or give me words of wisdome only because honestly i have no idea whats up with me its just blah. and because i hate the "i hope everything is ok" and the "i'll pray for you" because lets be honest we might think about that person for that time when we learn about them but afterwards its just something in the back of our heads. i appreciate them but this is not a pitty party. this is just me and whats happening to me right now.
anyway. i hope you guys are doing good though, i dont like to be the rain on a sunny day.\
-b i hope it gets better than this.