what makes us happen
I have been thinking alot latly. Of what, I dunno just everything. I see people around me being lied to and hurt, and their boyfriends are hurting them. I dont underatnd how one perosn can hurt another in the harsh ways that they do. It's almost disturbing. I look back at when I was hurt, almost beyone what I thouhgt could be repaired. Do I miss them? yes I do because I don't like to remember the times that were bad I try to remember the good times. And I know this soinds really hollywood, but I don't think I would ever want to go back with them. I don't know any other way to put it other then, I hate you. Not because I loved you but because I really do hate you. You maky think that Im still infatuated with you but the truth is, I wish I could neevr ever see your face again.
Some people say love lasts forever, but I dont think so. I think after a while you realize what just wasnt right, and that lvoe fades to a bitter hate. Not the kind of hate where you cant stand to be around the person, but the kind of hate that keeps something there. I don't exactly know how to describe it.
I guess what I was trying to get at was I dont understand how a peron you love could hurt you enough to break up, or just leav all together. purpusly.
Im swimming in the thought that it may happen again. because Johnny means alot to me, but im so scared he is going to be exactly like Dave and Andrew, take what they came for and then... leave. Oh well I hope not, but if thats the way the cookie crumbles. but you know 3rd times a charm.
Anywhoo yesterday nichole and Jason got into a HUGE fight. Over exatly what Im not sure about. But I know for a fact that they love eachother, because I know Nichole has been screwd over before, and apparsantly so has Jason. Not trying to medal in things but I think maybe Jason needs to open up to Nichole more, because he can tell me things fine and others too, but he needs to talk to Nichole because shes the one who neeeds to hear it most of all.
Anywhoo enough of my depressing rambling. I have art to do...perspective *shudders*
Some people say love lasts forever, but I dont think so. I think after a while you realize what just wasnt right, and that lvoe fades to a bitter hate. Not the kind of hate where you cant stand to be around the person, but the kind of hate that keeps something there. I don't exactly know how to describe it.
I guess what I was trying to get at was I dont understand how a peron you love could hurt you enough to break up, or just leav all together. purpusly.
Im swimming in the thought that it may happen again. because Johnny means alot to me, but im so scared he is going to be exactly like Dave and Andrew, take what they came for and then... leave. Oh well I hope not, but if thats the way the cookie crumbles. but you know 3rd times a charm.
Anywhoo yesterday nichole and Jason got into a HUGE fight. Over exatly what Im not sure about. But I know for a fact that they love eachother, because I know Nichole has been screwd over before, and apparsantly so has Jason. Not trying to medal in things but I think maybe Jason needs to open up to Nichole more, because he can tell me things fine and others too, but he needs to talk to Nichole because shes the one who neeeds to hear it most of all.
Anywhoo enough of my depressing rambling. I have art to do...perspective *shudders*