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so i'm probably going to break up with my boyfriend if he ever decides to call me again, mostly because he doesn't understand the concept of communication. i mean, am i being stupid or naggy for wanting to talk to him at least once everyday? its been three days. i saw him tonight at some meeting thing we had at work and he just looked at me and gave me these weird faces, and then didn't even say anything to me afterwards, just left. i'm kind of worried something is going on with his family because it had been a couple of weeks ago, but what the hell, call me and at least let me know that you're okay. whatev. i feel kind of selfish for caring about that so much when danielle's situation is still going on.
we're getting out of school tomorrow at 12 for the funeral. i'm kind of terrified to go because i know as soon as i see danielle, i'm going to start bawling. i already have the past two mornings walking into algebra and seeing her empty desk, and thinking about how she must have reacted when they told her about her mom. i mean. what kind of father can do that to his kids? its on the news now that he shot her three times, not two, so it definitely wasn't self-defense like they were trying to say it could have been.. they had history of domestic violence. but three times. no. that's just sick. its going to be closed casket, because they couldn't fix her face. it all makes me sick to my stomach, its not fair to anyone and i can't understand. i seriously threw up thinking about it earlier. so that's tomorrow.
also, i'm ready to get out of high school, seriously. there are so many games that we should have left in third grade, like the whole getting jealous when your friend has other friends. rachel is seriously ticking me off. she completely ditched christine when brittany and brynna came home from college for christmas, and now that me and christine are really close she wants to make a big deal out of how i'm 'replacing' her. ok. um no. does she expect christine to sit at home by herself while she's out with other friends? sorry hun, but in the real world you're allowed to have more than one best friend. seriously, today i was at christine's and rach texted her and said 'what are you doing right now, do you want to go to columbia'. christine said 'no, i don't have any money', and got a reply that was like 'ok, you could have just said brittney was there'. what the hell, how immature. then she said that i was replacing her because i basically lived with christine now. ok. sure. i'm over that crap.
but on a better note, i'm really glad i do basically live with christine now. when we hang out its seriously easy to forget all the crap that's been going on these past few weeks. and just a suggestion,
we're getting out of school tomorrow at 12 for the funeral. i'm kind of terrified to go because i know as soon as i see danielle, i'm going to start bawling. i already have the past two mornings walking into algebra and seeing her empty desk, and thinking about how she must have reacted when they told her about her mom. i mean. what kind of father can do that to his kids? its on the news now that he shot her three times, not two, so it definitely wasn't self-defense like they were trying to say it could have been.. they had history of domestic violence. but three times. no. that's just sick. its going to be closed casket, because they couldn't fix her face. it all makes me sick to my stomach, its not fair to anyone and i can't understand. i seriously threw up thinking about it earlier. so that's tomorrow.
also, i'm ready to get out of high school, seriously. there are so many games that we should have left in third grade, like the whole getting jealous when your friend has other friends. rachel is seriously ticking me off. she completely ditched christine when brittany and brynna came home from college for christmas, and now that me and christine are really close she wants to make a big deal out of how i'm 'replacing' her. ok. um no. does she expect christine to sit at home by herself while she's out with other friends? sorry hun, but in the real world you're allowed to have more than one best friend. seriously, today i was at christine's and rach texted her and said 'what are you doing right now, do you want to go to columbia'. christine said 'no, i don't have any money', and got a reply that was like 'ok, you could have just said brittney was there'. what the hell, how immature. then she said that i was replacing her because i basically lived with christine now. ok. sure. i'm over that crap.
but on a better note, i'm really glad i do basically live with christine now. when we hang out its seriously easy to forget all the crap that's been going on these past few weeks. and just a suggestion,