When?

[nothingseasy4u]

I have no idea what to do now.

I thought I had this under control.

Every time I think I get close it's always dashed apart. And once again its actually starting to interfere.

I want this to stop, I'm tired of feeling so fucked up all the time.

I hate feeling like I'm dead to the world.

I hate being so paranoid I have to restrain myself every time I go outside.

I hate not being able to sleep.

I hate feeling nothing towards people or myself.

I hate being me.

I hate that I can't trust anyone.

I hate that I need to isolate myself.

No more flashbacks.

No more insomnia.

No more hell.

I want this to end.

This has to end.

It will end.

It's just the question of...when?