long time
i havent writen in here in a long time but its the only thing i got write now. i feel like a dead corpe in the desert,my brain and soul has fled from me and the only thing im holding on to is hope. i wish i was someone else, i want to die and be an angel with no wings.the one i love does not know i exist, but when i look in his vibrate eyes i know its true. why can he see me ? am i invisible ? or is it not gods will . i will give up my soul ,to be with him. but whats the since? will he notice?. why am i not good enough?. i swear to god im gonna do something im going to regret.if only...he..i dont know what to think ive felt this way for so long that i dont know any other way to live. dylan is not real, he's just an excuse to live. i feel abandoned ,but yet im not. as the dayz go by i will think of him and when i finally see i will wonder how happy id been if i could just hold him. well this is my confession i dont give a fuck wat you all think.