Earth Angel, Will You Be Mine..
UGH. Fuck this weekend. It was a complete waste of my time and my emotion. Homecoming sucked. I just sat there the whole time. What a great way to end my high school Homecomings. We tried to go to an after party, but they wanted us to pay a cover charge and since I don't drink, I saw no point in that. So I just went home.
This weekend has made me finally come to terms with a few things though. I was trying to act like I didn't care, when I really did/still do. Time does not heal all wounds.
I've felt extra lonely lately. No one calls, no one makes any sort of contact with me unless I initiate it usually. That's not really right in any respects. I've just gotten to the point where I'd rather have a fake romance where I believe the girl loves me (even if it isn't true) as opposed to all of this bullshit.. I hate this.
I just need someone to give me an honest chance. Someone that has no motives besides getting to know the true me and someone who can put other guys aside. Then I can give them all of me without having to worry about being hurt. But that isn't going to happen so I'll just have to keep bitching.
This weekend has made me finally come to terms with a few things though. I was trying to act like I didn't care, when I really did/still do. Time does not heal all wounds.
I've felt extra lonely lately. No one calls, no one makes any sort of contact with me unless I initiate it usually. That's not really right in any respects. I've just gotten to the point where I'd rather have a fake romance where I believe the girl loves me (even if it isn't true) as opposed to all of this bullshit.. I hate this.
I just need someone to give me an honest chance. Someone that has no motives besides getting to know the true me and someone who can put other guys aside. Then I can give them all of me without having to worry about being hurt. But that isn't going to happen so I'll just have to keep bitching.