you shouldnt have to fall in love
within the last week i bought 5 cds. every so often i get this craving for new music and it makes me feel this new sense of energy nothing else seams to give me. alexisonfire's cd crisis has gotten under my skin. lyrically its just amazing and with 3 singers on this cd, it makes such a complex but amazing sound. my new years resolution is set and no one seams to think i can keep it. ive been feeling really off lately and i need to go to the drs within this week. its been about a month that i wake up feeling sick and gross and i cant seam to get rid of the feeling. yesterday i got freaked out. me tina and chris went to stop and shop and while i was walking down the isle my chest tightened and i got this really bad lightheaded feeling and my heart was racing and it scared me so much. for the rest of the night my heart rate was up and i had not a clue why. i noticed more and more that people arent who they seam to be. this pastyear had me hating myself because of so many questionable choices and not all are regreted but i ended 2005 burying my ferret and from there on it was just a rollercoaster of trying to make myself feel ok. im finally ok and every guy i couldnt just get over, is so behind me and now its up to me to make sure i dont make the same bad choices.