I'm back after a year...who still reads this???
So. Here I am. The thing about this, is I needed an outlet. I've had way too much on my mind lately, and it's killing me to not collect my thoughts through some medium. So, I'm back to this.
I've been in a rut. I have been single for exactly 1 year. Which isn't a bad thing, but all would consider me an emotional guy. I like to have attention, as well as give it in the form of a steady relationship. There's just one problem. There's a perfect reason I haven't tried to get back in the game, it's because I'm hesitant to put myself out there just to be completely rejected. I hate taking a risk without a reward, but I suppose that's why it's called a "risk". It's a game of chance that isn't exactly a sure thing. Right now I'm "talking" to someone, and I really dig her, but it's moving a lot slower than anticipated, but I'm playing the patient game. Which I believe is an okay track to follow based on my current situation, being that: I'm 23, in my 6th year of school (for my bachelor's degree), I'm going to be an engineer in the future with a 90% job guarantee upon graduation in March (somehow attractive????), I live with my parents. It's not like I've got it rough or have time to completely devote to someone. But I like to set that time aside. I've been on a roller coaster of emotions in the last 2 months it's been ridiculous. I donno. Things just aren't going the way I thought, and it makes me happy one day, then oblivious the next. With school back on, it doesn't help anything, it just adds more stress. I'll be fine someday. Hopefully soon.
I've been in a rut. I have been single for exactly 1 year. Which isn't a bad thing, but all would consider me an emotional guy. I like to have attention, as well as give it in the form of a steady relationship. There's just one problem. There's a perfect reason I haven't tried to get back in the game, it's because I'm hesitant to put myself out there just to be completely rejected. I hate taking a risk without a reward, but I suppose that's why it's called a "risk". It's a game of chance that isn't exactly a sure thing. Right now I'm "talking" to someone, and I really dig her, but it's moving a lot slower than anticipated, but I'm playing the patient game. Which I believe is an okay track to follow based on my current situation, being that: I'm 23, in my 6th year of school (for my bachelor's degree), I'm going to be an engineer in the future with a 90% job guarantee upon graduation in March (somehow attractive????), I live with my parents. It's not like I've got it rough or have time to completely devote to someone. But I like to set that time aside. I've been on a roller coaster of emotions in the last 2 months it's been ridiculous. I donno. Things just aren't going the way I thought, and it makes me happy one day, then oblivious the next. With school back on, it doesn't help anything, it just adds more stress. I'll be fine someday. Hopefully soon.