remember, because thats all you can do...
wow....the past month has been a heartbroken learning experience and at times, fun. me and becca are no more, and lots of you know how devoted i was to her. i gave everything to that girl and treated her like she was everything and she was everything to me. coming out of this relationship has taught me to be more careful, to not give second chances to someone who cheats on you, sacrifice things but not too many (like ring dance), and plenty of other aspects. for those of you know, in this relationship, i have been treated so bad that i pray no guy or any girl should have to go through in a relationship. im not bitter, for i have started to move on. ive noticed i've became a better person without her. all i can say is this is my first heartbreak..and life goes on. friends are by far the best ever. ive found myself feeling better just hanging out with friends and taking advice from friends. mike corfey came for vacation from college. he's like my older brother now cuz he's helped me get over becca and made me realize i deserve better. ive been hanging out with jenny who's also been telling me the same. i love that girl...we've been friends since my freshman year and it sucks she has to go to college but we promised to keep in touch. so today...i got away from the drama and the bullcrap so me and adam and mike went to the beach and jenny and ashley met us up there. i feel so much better for some reason...maybe cuz i was with friends, or maybe cuz im single, or maybe cuz i don't have to worry about having to always make someone happy and hoping they would appreciate everything i've done for them when all they did was yell at me and say it wasn't enough. i don't know....some girls just don't know what they want. i know becca has been telling everyone a different story then the real one, her story as it being making it look like i treated her like shit but if you know the real story, then you'll know what im talking about. as for becca and taylor, i hope everything works out for the both of you. best wishes and good luck. lately ive been listening to across five aprils' "a year from now" and that yellowcard song "only one" but im all about the across five aprils one cuz it's like they went into my mind and read my thoughts and feelings and wrote it on paper and made a song so read the lyrics under all this if you want. as for me and becca, im making the effort for us to be friends...as for anyone who reads this, getting your heart stepped on sucks...but your friends will always be there...take care. much love, kevin.
ACROSS FIVE APRILS- A YEAR FROM NOW
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
ACROSS FIVE APRILS- A YEAR FROM NOW
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours,
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But will never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember, cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I would have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real,
You said they were,
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
Knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm just sorry that it wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember these things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said is in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?