everything changes...
been a long time...
snice jay actually...looking back now, since i wrote here
all of a sudden I felt the need to do this...paper just didn't seem justified enough for the emotion I'm bursting to spill...
I NEED some1 to read this...or feel my pain...or just understand. writing in my paper notebook and shoving the feelings under my bed just didn't seem like it was gonna work this time...
I wanna scream to the world...
to him...
Never have i felt so strong about something...someone...a person.
animal is one thing...but for me...a person...
like this?
no
yes...6 years pass, and again back to haunt my dreams with stupid love and blind pain.
never have i wanted to bleed so bad...to ease the inner emotion...
tie the rope...I'll kick the fucking chair.
such strong emotion comes crashing down on me again...
why must I walk into paths of destruction...blind as a bat in hell.
then suprised when my world comes crashing down...
my halo's slippin down...
dark and poetic...dark and wanting to vannish
i miss this darker side of me...i left it behind a long time ago.
He has awaken it...
I look in the mirror...I've split in two...
I don't know the fat girl looking back at me...shes hidieous.
Why must I be tainted in this hell of a body...what is this!?
wake me up and say goodbye.
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Albetra in less than 2 months, mum bought a house.
Jay's dealin drugs again...beth is crack head...
funny how life goes...
Everything I've tried to love...has me watch it go away...
I wanna watch me go away now.
snice jay actually...looking back now, since i wrote here
all of a sudden I felt the need to do this...paper just didn't seem justified enough for the emotion I'm bursting to spill...
I NEED some1 to read this...or feel my pain...or just understand. writing in my paper notebook and shoving the feelings under my bed just didn't seem like it was gonna work this time...
I wanna scream to the world...
to him...
Never have i felt so strong about something...someone...a person.
animal is one thing...but for me...a person...
like this?
no
yes...6 years pass, and again back to haunt my dreams with stupid love and blind pain.
never have i wanted to bleed so bad...to ease the inner emotion...
tie the rope...I'll kick the fucking chair.
such strong emotion comes crashing down on me again...
why must I walk into paths of destruction...blind as a bat in hell.
then suprised when my world comes crashing down...
my halo's slippin down...
dark and poetic...dark and wanting to vannish
i miss this darker side of me...i left it behind a long time ago.
He has awaken it...
I look in the mirror...I've split in two...
I don't know the fat girl looking back at me...shes hidieous.
Why must I be tainted in this hell of a body...what is this!?
wake me up and say goodbye.
----------------------------------------------------------
Albetra in less than 2 months, mum bought a house.
Jay's dealin drugs again...beth is crack head...
funny how life goes...
Everything I've tried to love...has me watch it go away...
I wanna watch me go away now.