Holidays, and Recent Feelings
Ok Well, its been awhile since my last update-ness, but i wanted to get all my invites from the time my uncle was here until he left(which was this morning).
The night my Uncle came in my grandpa picked my brother and I up. The plane my uncle came home in was like sooo small, but eh its a plane. We got back to my grandparents at like 9-10ish that night, and we did alot of catching up, and played cards... lol we always play cards its really awesome we have good times. The next day it was Christmas Eve. So we stayed there and played cards most the morning and then we went hom and went out to my grandma Alvina's. As soon as we got there my uncle Barry took me and my brother to his place to play on his pinball machine... It was fun, i guess.. i didn't like being there alone with him, and his drunkness, hes the only person I know who, when drunk actually makes my skin crawl, iunno.. i wish he didnt drink soo damn much hes lost everything and i dont think he realises it. Well after like playing for 20mins and getting my ass kicked by my brother, we went back to my grandmas and ate supper...Finally I got to see my aunties baby, *sigh/smile* Nikki, whoa do i love that little girl. I quickly ate my supper, and then went to watch over my new favorite, cousin... lol (even tho they call me "Auntie Kat" : P, iunno shes completely awesome). My brother got really impatience and we opened presents extremely early (which is goodish, we get to play 31 soon). My grandma got me this awesome sweater got Stitches, I think its awesome. Soo lol we played 31, i was sittin beside my Uncle Dale and later my Grandma. but on the other side of my uncle was my mom, lol he was suck in the middle, poor guy lol. Well yes well, I had a good time buggin' my uncle that night. We even bent one of the legs on my grandmas chairs when we were wrestling lol. After all this excitment I won the first pot in 31, like i said i would : P. My mom let me drink out there, adn then after my Uncle Dale and I talked, more then we've ever talked together in my whole life, it was awesome. I then went back to playing with Nikki until it was time to leave. Omg did i have trouble sleeping, i woke up at like 3 and didnt get back to sleep until 4. The next morning (CHRISTMAS BABY WOOT!) my grandparents and uncle came up. Niki called and brought me my present it was soo awesome!! she came up and stayed for a bit, we opened presents I got a: Cell, DEGRASSI: TNG on DVD!, a computer(the basement one) kickass speakers off it, a hair do-er, Curious by Britney Spears it smells soo good. later at my grandparents, i got more clothes, money, a new journal thing, and more Curious... lol which i took back for money...That night we played Rumol-e most of the night. On Boxing Day i bought a purse and a new wallet. Then cause i was shopping with my grandma, i got more sweaters. We came home the next day and i babysat Nikki, and then invited Niki over. it was funni i had both nik/kis over lol... WE then went back to my grandparents and watched Van Helsing and Godsend... I liked Van Hesling, but Godsend made me freak the hell out,... ahh! so glad I had my puppy with me thatnight lol i wasnt that scared : P. WE went home the next day which was yesterday. now yesterday i didnt really do anything, I think i talked to like Evan, Jason, Devon and Dean, and Chris the only night(and dayna). i wasn't every social yesterday that was like for 3 until 9 that night.. lol. The rest of the night until like 2am i watched my mom fix my computer and make it awesum!... knowing i was going to have to get up early to go stay goodbye to my uncle... lol we slept in lol. BUT we did get there in time and said our goodbyes over coffee, and then spent the rest of the mornign running around Northgate and Cornwall.. I finally got home and talked to Jason for like 5mins, adn then went ot Evans... and watched Shrek 2, lol he came over and we then watched the Fox and the Hound, in which i cried... omg im sucha baby it not even funny, but i am sorry i thought it was sad when she takes him into the woods and decided to leave him there soo he survives...etc. WE made popcorn and then Evan left.
Feelings:
iunno what exactly I am feeling lately, Like i do believe I like Jason, hes a pretty great guy to talk to, and im excited to hang out with him. but iunno i have this one song on my mind lately, and well you people can decide why/ who i think about when i listen to it:
Christina Aguelira[Walk Away]
[What do you do when you know something's bad for you but you still can't let go?]
I was naive, your love was like candy
artificially sweet, I was deceived by the wrapping
Got caught in your web and I learned how to bleed
I was prey in your bed and devoured completely
And it hurts my sould cause I can't let go
all these walls are caving in, I can't stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I lost control
Cause I, I keep going right back
To the one thing that I need
To walk away from
Yeaaah...
I need to get away from you, need to walk away from you
get away, walk away, walk away...
I should have knowing that I was used for amusement
couldn't see through the smoke,
It was all an illusion
Now I've been licking my wounds but the venom seeps deeper
We both can seduce, but darlin you hold me prisoner
Oh, Im about to break, I can't stop this ache
Im addicted to your allure, and Im fiedning' for a cure
Every step I take leads to one mistake
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need
Oh, I cant mend this torn state Im in
Getting nothing in return, what did i do to deverse
the pain of this slow burn
and everywhere I turn,
I keep going right back to the one thing that I need
to walk away from
Yeahh...
I Need to get away from you, need to walk away from you
Everytime I try to grasp for air
I am smothered in despair
Its never over, over oh oh...
Seems I'll nver wake from this nightmare,
I let out a silence prayer...
Let It Be over, oh...
Inside Im screaming, begging, pleading no more
Now what to do, my heart has been bruised
so sad but its true, each beat reminds me of you
It hurts my soul, cause I can't let go
All These walls are caving in, I cant stop my sufferin'
I hate to show that I've lost control
Cause I, I keep going right back to the one thing that I need
Oh, Im about to break, I cant stop this ache
Im addicted to you allure, and Im fiendin for a cure
every step i take leads to one mistake
I keep going right back to teh one thing that I need
Oh, I cant mend this torn start Im in
Getting nothing in return, what did i do to deserve
the pain of this slow burn
And everywhere I turn, I Keep going right back to the one thing that I need
To walk away from
yeahh...
dying...oohh
I said...
Need to get away from you, need to walk away from you
get away, walk away, walk away
Only thing I need to do
Is walk away from you
outtie for now