.I.Løve.My.Mømmy.
My mom is the strongest person I know, honestly for thoses who have seen her in the last five years know what she has had to deal with, with her arm..
She's so strong...
We were at Niki's today and she was talking about her arm and wall that retarded bullshit she has to go through because her arm likes to move without being told to. I think I'd go crazy with all of it, plus the fact that I can't help but sometimes beat myself stupid because my arm likes to move and hit and swing and jolt around. I've known this for awhile but they want to put something in her brain to help stop/control it.. [they say she has it forever now, what a crock of shit] and listening to her talk about it, it's scary shit
And I know how terrified it makes her, I can tell when she was telling Lawrence today I could hear it in her voice. If I was her to hell yeah I'd be scared, granteed I would have probably tried to cut my arm off already and give up, but I can't see my mom doing that.
Last week with her arm it was so bad, when I got home from school and it WOULD NOT stop jolting, I was in a state of what the fuck and dear god.
..*anger*..
They've tried so much, thinking it's her shoulder and all she askes if for them to work on her elbow, that that's were the pain and everything comes from and why they wont and haven't for FIVE YEARS blows my mind away, honestly it's one of the only things left they can try right? and BLAH! fucking DOCTORS! ASSHOLES!! all of them.
Going through stupid shit, and this recent bull with my brother and being bullied by some tawt for two years and not have a mental/emotional/ physical break-down is something that is so amazing and hard for me to understand
Me.. I'd break-drown.. cry, go crazy and probably honestly try to kill myself, I just couldn't go through it at all.
I wonder if at night, if she prays that it'll stop (most likely) or thinks that nothing will get better and lifes a bitch, *insert swear words here*
God life would suck without her, honestly I am a very breakable person now, but she's my glue that puts me back together and without her I'd just stay broke, forever and ever, and cry all the time and be a broken blob of Katherine on the floor [maybe I'll be this big piece of famous art people will admire, doubt it]...I Love you Mommy
She's so strong...
We were at Niki's today and she was talking about her arm and wall that retarded bullshit she has to go through because her arm likes to move without being told to. I think I'd go crazy with all of it, plus the fact that I can't help but sometimes beat myself stupid because my arm likes to move and hit and swing and jolt around. I've known this for awhile but they want to put something in her brain to help stop/control it.. [they say she has it forever now, what a crock of shit] and listening to her talk about it, it's scary shit
And I know how terrified it makes her, I can tell when she was telling Lawrence today I could hear it in her voice. If I was her to hell yeah I'd be scared, granteed I would have probably tried to cut my arm off already and give up, but I can't see my mom doing that.
Last week with her arm it was so bad, when I got home from school and it WOULD NOT stop jolting, I was in a state of what the fuck and dear god.
..*anger*..
They've tried so much, thinking it's her shoulder and all she askes if for them to work on her elbow, that that's were the pain and everything comes from and why they wont and haven't for FIVE YEARS blows my mind away, honestly it's one of the only things left they can try right? and BLAH! fucking DOCTORS! ASSHOLES!! all of them.
Going through stupid shit, and this recent bull with my brother and being bullied by some tawt for two years and not have a mental/emotional/ physical break-down is something that is so amazing and hard for me to understand
Me.. I'd break-drown.. cry, go crazy and probably honestly try to kill myself, I just couldn't go through it at all.
I wonder if at night, if she prays that it'll stop (most likely) or thinks that nothing will get better and lifes a bitch, *insert swear words here*
God life would suck without her, honestly I am a very breakable person now, but she's my glue that puts me back together and without her I'd just stay broke, forever and ever, and cry all the time and be a broken blob of Katherine on the floor [maybe I'll be this big piece of famous art people will admire, doubt it]...I Love you Mommy