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I'm feeling prettygood as of right now... I've slept almost the entire day so now I can't sleep. maybe its all the stuff going through my head
my brothr gave me flowers and a big balloon that sings don't worry be hapy. maybe Ive been wrong about him all this time. he shows me time and agin in my weaker moments that he loves and cares about me and for that I will do the same for him no matter what he does or says.
My mom hasbarely left my side since we got home, though I told her I can do stuff for myself. I told her I don't want to be a wuss. She said I'm allowed to be a wuss, though I'm not sure that is true. I can't have things to myself like that.
I've been wrong about a lot of things lately and I've made some choices I can really udrstand now that I should have just let alone or walked away. I let myself be walked on, I guess I just ask for it.
it sucks to come to such a sad realization when you can barely sit up without getting dizzy. And not be able to have a beer.
I'm going to make a mix cd for me and my bro. Its music that I like, and some songs I know he likes, some of hte music I listen to whn I'm sad. I'm a closet emo kid whn I'm sad I guess. Its kinda my repaying him for the flowers, and kind of a thank you for being there. I just wish I was like that for him.
my brothr gave me flowers and a big balloon that sings don't worry be hapy. maybe Ive been wrong about him all this time. he shows me time and agin in my weaker moments that he loves and cares about me and for that I will do the same for him no matter what he does or says.
My mom hasbarely left my side since we got home, though I told her I can do stuff for myself. I told her I don't want to be a wuss. She said I'm allowed to be a wuss, though I'm not sure that is true. I can't have things to myself like that.
I've been wrong about a lot of things lately and I've made some choices I can really udrstand now that I should have just let alone or walked away. I let myself be walked on, I guess I just ask for it.
it sucks to come to such a sad realization when you can barely sit up without getting dizzy. And not be able to have a beer.
I'm going to make a mix cd for me and my bro. Its music that I like, and some songs I know he likes, some of hte music I listen to whn I'm sad. I'm a closet emo kid whn I'm sad I guess. Its kinda my repaying him for the flowers, and kind of a thank you for being there. I just wish I was like that for him.