(no subject)

[notherapy]

focus/dilate

regain senseless mindless controlling substance

numb back! cascading walls

billowing; resentment coating thick-

sticky hands (wet with coercion)

with trickery

crimson lines forever spelling mockery

mimickery and stillness

so many decisions still shake me

and I ask only for them to take me

fill me change me beat me love me

find me worthy

of this ever shortening timeline

laid over wrongs we never knew from rights

severed songs and crooked sight

the sobriety lapses and sinks

back flat on its stupid back

inverted regret; the shade of deep

bruises and careful lack

bones cra/ck but never (listen)

chased; racing steps snap

on cold wet pavement

and some (how) (where) (time)

my eyes roll back and in

surrendering sight for vision-that

tastes (like ashes and dusk)

and div/ision

all the greens in the world rival nothing

but a cold-hearted extradition

simply put means nothing understood

against the frigid chill of ice-locked life

(and all these empty decisions)