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This is getting ridiculous. I lost my wallet a second time yesterday! Admittedly it wasn't actually lost the second time, it turned out to have been in my room all along, but I still can't believe I left the house without it just hours after getting it back thanks to a massive stroke of luck. This put me in the unenviable position of going for almost an entire bar-crawl without money, though thanks to the kindness of various friends I succeeded in getting comfortably merry anyway. But it's amazing how naked you feel without cash/means of getting cash.
Revision's getting really annoying now. There's still over a month to go, which means that if I really got down to it now and worked solidly and steadily for the next few weeks I could cover most of the stuff and approach Mods in a calm, chilled-out and mature manner. But of course, I'm not going to do that because, after all, there's over a month to go, so why would I want to be working solidly and steadily when I could be alternately staying out til 2am the night before a 9am tutorial and then wasting entire days fretting about how stupid I am? What's more, I know I could really enjoy this term, because the pace of work has been so frantic up til now that I've been longing for time to spend going through and consolidating everything and reminding myself that I actually love my course. I've got texts that I'm sure I would actually like to re-read (or indeed read, having blagged it the first time around) in a relaxed and unhurried manner, books and articles sitting on my shelf that I could peruse practically at my leisure and make sense of without having to skim frantically through them for essay deadlines. And yet I'm finding it really, really hard to do any of those things.
Revision's getting really annoying now. There's still over a month to go, which means that if I really got down to it now and worked solidly and steadily for the next few weeks I could cover most of the stuff and approach Mods in a calm, chilled-out and mature manner. But of course, I'm not going to do that because, after all, there's over a month to go, so why would I want to be working solidly and steadily when I could be alternately staying out til 2am the night before a 9am tutorial and then wasting entire days fretting about how stupid I am? What's more, I know I could really enjoy this term, because the pace of work has been so frantic up til now that I've been longing for time to spend going through and consolidating everything and reminding myself that I actually love my course. I've got texts that I'm sure I would actually like to re-read (or indeed read, having blagged it the first time around) in a relaxed and unhurried manner, books and articles sitting on my shelf that I could peruse practically at my leisure and make sense of without having to skim frantically through them for essay deadlines. And yet I'm finding it really, really hard to do any of those things.