Dont you want to be found...

[notforsalex0]

This whole ignoring him thing really just started getting hard for me. Its only been a week damn it...thats nothing right. Well i wish it wasn't. I need more self-control. I didn't cry for a really long time...to long almost. Its a real good release. Its defently like puking when ur drunk. Your vision gets blurry, ur head hurts like hell...puking up the shit thats hurting your head makes everything feel better...then going to sleep makes it all go away...Atleast till morning. Why do i even bother spending my time with people that only seem to feel good about themselves after they feel they've hurt someone in the process. why is he the only one that makes me feel good I dont want to come off as some idiot stalker girl, coz im not. I fall for people to easily sometimes, i really should start hateing more people. Of course after i become a lesbian. Chicks seem to dig me. i dont get it. The show last night was fucking amazing. If theres one thing in this world that i hate its defently consecutive liars. I fucking hate consecutive liars. I feel so blank.

Why did she stare at me all night last night?
Why was he acting so different?
Who the fuck does she think she is anyway?
Why do some people do so much just for the littlest amount of attention?

I dont understand people.

i wish i was drunk.
i want some rum.
This guy that works at the planet is really cool. I wish i was attracted to him.