the one i got and the one i can't find.
a) snowtimes in six weeks with andrew and deb and her crew. looking forward to walking away from sydney life. and spending time with deb because she is gracious and she is strong and she has always taught me to think critically. and spending time with andrew because he loves god and has a passion for youth and is always thinking and always smiling and asking questions. and looking forward to disappearing into the whiteness and the powder. getting bruises but getting better and feeling that adrenaline that only comes with sliding down a mountain.
b) lebanon is ON. in april next year. two weeks, and then maybe two weeks in egypt seeing the pyramids and riding camels and checking out the nile and the museums and eating great great food. i am terrified but i am excited. i have been reading and reading about lebanon during and out of war, and i can't wait to go. talking with milard tonight it was impossible to not share his enthusaism for his country. he is so filled with the love of God that it flows out of him with every word and every look and every smile.
c) everything has been really hard. i am grateful for the friends and family who have been there. with advice and hugs and time and jokes. and surprised by the ones who weren't. but God has been teaching me and challenging me and as things change, well i am okay with them. i don't long for things i don't have anymore, or for things that would only bring me harm. i don't know. i'm trying to be happy. it's not always easy. i think too much and some days and weeks i can't get out of bed or i can't talk or i can't look you in the face. i know i'm not particularly easy to stick with. but i appreciate that you tried.
b) lebanon is ON. in april next year. two weeks, and then maybe two weeks in egypt seeing the pyramids and riding camels and checking out the nile and the museums and eating great great food. i am terrified but i am excited. i have been reading and reading about lebanon during and out of war, and i can't wait to go. talking with milard tonight it was impossible to not share his enthusaism for his country. he is so filled with the love of God that it flows out of him with every word and every look and every smile.
c) everything has been really hard. i am grateful for the friends and family who have been there. with advice and hugs and time and jokes. and surprised by the ones who weren't. but God has been teaching me and challenging me and as things change, well i am okay with them. i don't long for things i don't have anymore, or for things that would only bring me harm. i don't know. i'm trying to be happy. it's not always easy. i think too much and some days and weeks i can't get out of bed or i can't talk or i can't look you in the face. i know i'm not particularly easy to stick with. but i appreciate that you tried.