downward spiral
Well, i'm just being negative and wait, one thing the guy that said "i bet you 10$ that my lj is better then yours" well i don't really care , actually i'm shure yours is better and i hope your proud that your on a higher level then me, all your friends, money, looks. yah wou win, big deal.
Yah today was like alright i have a habit of taking pain killers during 2 peroid and then the rest of the day i'm not tense or no anxiety. I got home helped paint cabinets and played guitar. I went out with clare and amanda tonight. We shopped for xmas hat and we tottaly missed the holiday sign selection which we felt dumb. We went through the whole store and never checked the corner. I had a bad feeling for some reason when they dropped me off, and i still have it. It is like i'm pretty much a looser too other people or i just need to grow up and stop being a slacker. I have all this other shit i never spill out , it just lives inside taking up room but the feeling is empty and i have a angry barrier around it. Anxiety is this other things, it's like i have to be with someone i'm comfortable with, it's stupid. The thing is most people don't understand me, it's like what do i do with my silence. I'v been told to make new friends but they are not the same, the old ones were the ones i rather be with. I think it will be alright when i move back to austin.
Hear me spit on you, wither I
Remold into gold and bury I from - Sun
Reborn left to sigh, recure maybe I'll
Be born and simplify the way I lie Before
I get bored, I get bored, I get bored I'm bored
Repent by you and trust to figure out
I burn that gift to you doll and let it shine before
I get bored, I get bored, I get bored, A wish for a real one
Pissed and confide, before me or I
We come clean, it gets worse - it's more
Get bored, I get bored, I get bored, A wish for a real one
Get bored, Get bored, Get bored, I wish for a real one
stop I'm drunk
but I'm off my knees
the police stopped chasing
i'm her new cool meat
she pops the trunk
and she removes me
and a machine that takes
pictures of us
now my jaw and my teeth hurt
i'm choking from gnawing on the ball
and just before I come to move to
the back of the car she makes me
touch the machine
new murderer
first untie me
untie me for now
you said you would, right?
and you were right
(soon I'll let you go)
soon this will be all over
well I hope soon
she sang
so she sang
(soon I'll let you go)
Yah today was like alright i have a habit of taking pain killers during 2 peroid and then the rest of the day i'm not tense or no anxiety. I got home helped paint cabinets and played guitar. I went out with clare and amanda tonight. We shopped for xmas hat and we tottaly missed the holiday sign selection which we felt dumb. We went through the whole store and never checked the corner. I had a bad feeling for some reason when they dropped me off, and i still have it. It is like i'm pretty much a looser too other people or i just need to grow up and stop being a slacker. I have all this other shit i never spill out , it just lives inside taking up room but the feeling is empty and i have a angry barrier around it. Anxiety is this other things, it's like i have to be with someone i'm comfortable with, it's stupid. The thing is most people don't understand me, it's like what do i do with my silence. I'v been told to make new friends but they are not the same, the old ones were the ones i rather be with. I think it will be alright when i move back to austin.
Hear me spit on you, wither I
Remold into gold and bury I from - Sun
Reborn left to sigh, recure maybe I'll
Be born and simplify the way I lie Before
I get bored, I get bored, I get bored I'm bored
Repent by you and trust to figure out
I burn that gift to you doll and let it shine before
I get bored, I get bored, I get bored, A wish for a real one
Pissed and confide, before me or I
We come clean, it gets worse - it's more
Get bored, I get bored, I get bored, A wish for a real one
Get bored, Get bored, Get bored, I wish for a real one
stop I'm drunk
but I'm off my knees
the police stopped chasing
i'm her new cool meat
she pops the trunk
and she removes me
and a machine that takes
pictures of us
now my jaw and my teeth hurt
i'm choking from gnawing on the ball
and just before I come to move to
the back of the car she makes me
touch the machine
new murderer
first untie me
untie me for now
you said you would, right?
and you were right
(soon I'll let you go)
soon this will be all over
well I hope soon
she sang
so she sang
(soon I'll let you go)