o3o. (weren't you supposed to be a loner or something)

[notevendiseased]

The days keep goin' forward without me wantin' 'em too, and it's irritating. Hate studying. Am digging the study parties wherein virtually no studying goes on. I'm itching to get outside and do shit, but I know the minute I get off doin' something, and I mean the minute I do it that I'm not comin' back. It's in my brain and everything, I know it.

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private, very hackable.

[notevendiseased]

It's not. Look, I know I don't have anything to live up to, I don't have anybody lording anything over me, but that doesn't mean I don't have any idea what I'm talking about. I know you're... Look, Sasuke, just-- This is all...paper. It's all paper. It's flat, it's thin, it's shallow, hell, it's barely three-dimensional. This impact this is gunna have on our live, sure it's there, and I know that, as far as what you're talkin' about it's there for you in way more than one way, but listen to me:

You? Are not. A failure. you may not be Itachi but you are not a failure, and any type of self-worth you derive from this is yer own deal. Scoring whatever score on this does not make you any less in anybody's eyes but your own, and you know I'm right. You are surrounded by people who fuckin' adore you, and nothing you do is ever gunna change that. This is your own goddamn lack of self-esteem manifesting, an' I'm not gunna lie, that bugs me, but this isn't about me. This is about you grabbing yourself by the heels of your shoes and yankin' yourself back up if you have to.

Forget what Itachi can do. Forget it, or I'm gunna hit you so hard you forget he ever existed. You are not him, you're never gunna be him, that is not a bad thing, so just stop panicking about this and making it a bigger deal than it is. This grade is not going to change your life. You are you, and you need help on this, and needing help on this does not mean you are weak or bad or stupid or in anyy way less. It means you need to get some help on it. It means you need to ask somebody for help, and I know how much you hate that and I know why, s'not really something I'm big on either, but you've gotta get a hold of this somehow, and sitting around and forcing yourself through it isn't helping.