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[notevendiseased]

So uh.

Yyyyeaaah.

Went back to the Children's Hospital this weekend. That was uh. Fun. Only not really. Got some pills shoved so far down my throat that they came back up and then I had to take some more. I'm pretty sure my kidney's grown feet and is kicking my liver. If I start sprouting weird limbs, I'll let you know. S'kinda like having

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[harunosakura91]

Hospital? Again? Why are they shoving pills down your throat?

Most of that didn't make sense. Which probably shouldn't make me quite this . . . pleased?

You broke up with Neji? Fine, if you don't want to talk about it, but . . . what's going on?

[notevendiseased]

Because I was in dire need of them.

Like...seriously.

Dire. Need.

I need to talk to you.

[harunosakura91]

I'm not going to argue with that, then.

About what?

[notevendiseased]

Yeah. Well, I mean, you could if you wanted to, I'm not going to stop you or anything, you can argue if you want to. I just-

They're making me tolerable again, so.

I mean.

Me. Specifically, me being a dick to you. And all things in between. ...did what I just say make any kind of sense.

[harunosakura91]

Well, if the doctors are shoving them down your throat, then they must be important.

Oh. Those kind of meds.

So they've changed your meds. I suppose that means you didn't 'mean' anything that's been happening? That it doesn't count?

[notevendiseased]

Yeah. Those kinds of meds.

No! ...well, yeah, but- Sakura, what the hell do you-

....................you're mad at me.

[harunosakura91]

I guess I am. Hard to explain. It's just . . . trying to figure out who I'm talking to. The whole Neji situation, and you suddenly break up with him? You've been so distant. And yeah, you've been a bit of a dick.

You make me nuts, Naruto.

[notevendiseased]

Heh. If I wasn't about this close to driving myself nuts? I could almost take that as a compliment.

...look. Uh. I know I really haven't been...myself lately. Like, at all. Like, to the point where you and Sasuke have stepped back from me like "whooooooaaaaaa, we are not gunna be friends with this crazy motherfucker anymore." I get that. Seriously. I have been on weird trip. I'm not even entirely sure where I was comin' from.

Wayyyyy out of crazy left field, kinda looks like.

I know that it's my fault things are like this, okay?

Can I just..........can you let me try to fix it? Please?

[harunosakura91]

I never once said I wasn't your friend.

But you're right. Things are different. And it's not because I stepped back. It's because I got tired of trying to chase you. Everyone keeps telling me to stop being a nag.

I'm wiling to talk. That doesn't mean that things will be automatically okay, but you're my friend and I'm willing to talk. You're in for a rough time with Sasuke.

[notevendiseased]

My God, like I don't know. Shit, I'm dreading that encounter already. I'm trying to book myself up so that I can save that confrontation for last, but I know putting it off isn't gunna help. Trust me, I do. I don't know, I'm kind of hoping I'll atleast have you back on my side before then.

I just...

I wanna...I don't know how to make it up to you. I really don't. The idea that you're even willing to talk to me right now astounds me a little bit. So...I don't know. I thought that if we talked it might make it better.

Maybe.

I don't know.

A little?

I really don't know.

[harunosakura91]

I'd pretty much just expect him to ignore you and walk away. You know, standard stuff. Besides, the sooner you start, the more time you'll have to chip away at him. The closet didn't work, study sessions didn't work, tears didn't work, I don't know what else to try to fix you two.

I'm not picking sides. I refuse. I'm getting used to none of my friends liking each other. And why does everyone think I'm that easy to chase off? I'm not a wimp. Of course I'm talking to you, I never stopped!

But yes. We should talk. A lot. It's the only thing I can think of.

And junk food.

[notevendiseased]

Okay. I'm pretty much open any time. I really don't want to go to school until I calm the fuck down, which should happen around 8 PM tonight, so I'm pretty...open. Schedule-wise.

Sakura... You don't have to feel obligated to fix us. Seriously, I'm glad you're even willing, but you don't need to. That's my job. I'll...handle it. Him. I don't know. But I owe that to both of you.

[harunosakura91]

I'm not prepping for a fight anymore, so my schedule has opened up a bunch. Just tell me when.

I can't fix it, anyways.

[notevendiseased]

Yeah, but it seems like you're trying. And you don't need to. Let me suffer for this a little bit. You know I deserve it.