"you think you know...who you are, what's to come..... you have no idea"
starting a new lj is so monumental, so.... big.
ha, not really i don't guess, but... i guess it feels that way right now because of everything going on in my life.
- graduating from college in a few weeks
- applying to graduate programs
- following God to a new community of believers (no idea where this will be...)
- having a mutual break-up (breakdown?) with my boyfriend of 4 years, not out of desire but out of willingness to follow God, even when he leads me places i don't think i want to go.
i chose the name "not done baking" because i think it applies to me... to all of us, probably... we're probably not ever done baking until we're gone from this life and have moved on to the next (yes, i mean heaven, not reincarnation)
it comes from the very last episode of buffy the vampire slayer. it's a sort of explanation she gives to angel (whom i personally believe is her soul mate, ha!) about her feelings on her love life, her future, her... everything, really.
i'm not done baking, and i realize that so clearly right now. i'm not yet done becoming who i'm going to be... and as scary as that is, it's also refreshing. i have all of these amazing opportunities in every single day, and God just keeps giving me more, more, more .... more reasons to trust him, more knowledge, more love, more gifts to share with other people...
so this is my own little philosophical introduction to my new lj.
it's going to be a good one, i'm sure.
ha, not really i don't guess, but... i guess it feels that way right now because of everything going on in my life.
- graduating from college in a few weeks
- applying to graduate programs
- following God to a new community of believers (no idea where this will be...)
- having a mutual break-up (breakdown?) with my boyfriend of 4 years, not out of desire but out of willingness to follow God, even when he leads me places i don't think i want to go.
i chose the name "not done baking" because i think it applies to me... to all of us, probably... we're probably not ever done baking until we're gone from this life and have moved on to the next (yes, i mean heaven, not reincarnation)
it comes from the very last episode of buffy the vampire slayer. it's a sort of explanation she gives to angel (whom i personally believe is her soul mate, ha!) about her feelings on her love life, her future, her... everything, really.
i'm not done baking, and i realize that so clearly right now. i'm not yet done becoming who i'm going to be... and as scary as that is, it's also refreshing. i have all of these amazing opportunities in every single day, and God just keeps giving me more, more, more .... more reasons to trust him, more knowledge, more love, more gifts to share with other people...
so this is my own little philosophical introduction to my new lj.
it's going to be a good one, i'm sure.