dead inside...
i'm not quite sure why i'm already freaking out about this already. it's not like he's made up his mind...just listed it as a possibility. he's thinking this weekend. he should have things figured out by sunday.
but...what if he does break up with me?
that thought really just brings me to tears. i can't even imagine how i'll feel/react if it does happen. i've put in so much time, emotion, everything into this for the past year, and then it would just end for seemingly no reason other than "we could end up hating each other." i can go ahead and say that it's much more likely for me to hate him if he breaks up with me.
he's thinking about too many if's. and he's also thinking that this will just end up the way it did with him and sarah. i'm not like her. i won't become like her. and if he would just stop thinkin this would turn out like that, then we'd be ok.
i thought this would go on much longer than not even a year.
but...what if he does break up with me?
that thought really just brings me to tears. i can't even imagine how i'll feel/react if it does happen. i've put in so much time, emotion, everything into this for the past year, and then it would just end for seemingly no reason other than "we could end up hating each other." i can go ahead and say that it's much more likely for me to hate him if he breaks up with me.
he's thinking about too many if's. and he's also thinking that this will just end up the way it did with him and sarah. i'm not like her. i won't become like her. and if he would just stop thinkin this would turn out like that, then we'd be ok.
i thought this would go on much longer than not even a year.