Speechless
i saw The Passion sunday afternoon. and i dont think im ever going to be the same. i left the movie feeling so completely low and unworthy. i am so ungrateful. i saw throughout the movie what Jesus did for us, how much suffering, pain, and agony he went through, for US. for people who are so unworthy of what he did for us. at one point i just leaned forward in my seat and balled. i cant believe it took me seeing this movie to realize some of things i realized yesterday. he did that for us, was BRUTALLY beaten, the most brutal beating i have ever seen, then was nailed onto a cross and left for dead, he did that for me and i cant even do small things, like spend 20 minutes out of my day with him. i dont know whats come over me this last year. i cant explain it. i saw what kind of love Jesus has for us yesterday, but i still dont comprehend it. i mess up SOOO many times, and every time i want to come crawling back to him, and he is right there waiting for me, and i dont understand why he does it. i dont deserve anything he has given me. we are so ungrateful and we dont even know it, we are so caught up in this world and what the world wants for us, that we dont take time to realize what jesus did for us, but i saw that yesterday, and its completely changed me. i havent acted the same since yesterday. i know im going to be changing alot of my ways. its not gonna be easy, but i know i need to do it, its the least i can do. it doesnt compare at all to what He did for us. I dont know what I'm feelings inside, I'm full of something but i cant figure it out, but i feel like i just want to tell everyone what i experienced yesterday afternoon. i cant explain it. i was so speechless after seeing the movie, i couldnt talk, i couldnt go anywhere, i just went home. i hope this movie has the same impact on everyone else as it did on me, it would be awesome. i'm in complete awe.