What happened yesterday, you always remember tommorow
Well I didn't go to school today I had a meeting this morning so yay for that I had lost my cell phone then found it and had three calls that I never got a chance to return...sigh
LONG ENTRY: It's mainly just for me anyway so I don't care if you read it or not thats ok with me =)
Well let's see today was...ok I was going to go back to school I would have made 4th period but I decided after a trip to starbucks nah... just go home now trust me my mom forgot to call the school and clear today's absents but thats ok something else I must deal with though, she has got enough on her plate she doesn't need my problems.
I am somewhat sleepy yet not, I went to bed around almost 4am then got up at 6am for a 9:15 appointment... intresting I was almost eatten alive by this gross looking red and black spider... not kidding about the spider kidding about getting eatten alive...
My Grandma made a cake...I didn't want it it was yellow with white frosting, I like carrot because the carrots are just to cute that are drawn on top and white with chocolate frosting I will eat that. But I did have a bananna! she had oranges but I like red apples. uhmmm I get to go pick a new sweater this weekend ♥ so that should be entertaining. I for some reason missed school...I am just lifeless right now to lazy I worked a little on some makeups for dance WHICH I have another one to do for today's absents... yay more work for me which means more stress more deadlines that I will miss and more fed up teachers...trust me soon enough you will get annoyed with me people and then thats my sign of it's time to go. See you knew I couldn't have a happy ending entry right? it has to be a woe is me life sucks let me pull the trigger type thing. What did you expect something like this,
" OH MY GOD today was like the best day ever! I wish I could redo it!"
uh...no not gonna happen. Christmas is in 24days? and I still have to get out and get candy for all my teachers and friends. This will be my last year doing this...=( how sad. But you know im coming back to visit next year and well do like the same thing come on now... it's me.
I now...let me sound like a Grinch and say this It's not like how it was when I was really little, all excitement and holiday cheer, lights on the house Debbie little Dave and I all hanging the lights arguing over whether or not the icecicles should go in the window...that feeling sorta went out the window one very sad year...where the only lights we put up were one string in the window...and we never really wanted to turn them on anyway...We just didn't care. We pretty much stuck to ourself's stayed inside the house because we had nothing really else better to do. How...sad if you knew the story.
It was a quiet Christmas...I didn't even want to get up on christmas day. Not want to get up on Christmas? now that is sad. I was heartbroken... all of us were in our own way. I again sounding like a Grinch hated that Christmas. I hated that New Year. It was a sad time for everyone, but what we had to do and was sorta hard to pull off was we HAD to try to be happy, not just for ourselves but Little Dave needed us to be strong for him we had to be...poor baby. Moving on...This is making me teary eyed already...
Why am I typing this...why all of a sudden do I think about that one Christmas that one that should be forgot? It's hard to...really hard.
I hate the holidays...Shoot me now I'm worst then the Grinch. It just doesn't feel Merry anymore. But what I do enjoy is seeing the smiles on everyone else's faces when they are given a little candy packet. That warm's my heart alot.
People are already annoyed with me but who care's let them be these are my problems whatever they may be and I don't have to share them with you and I wont I should have never shared them in the first place really, Problems cause more problems. I should have never let anyone behind my concret wall...I was safe back here safe...now im not so sure. Maybe I should have never opened my big fat mouth...nice one La Shawn nice.
Be fed up with me, stress yourself out go right ahead, it's just going to kill you faster right? stress kills.
Then why arn't I dead yet!
my hand's are cold and freezing! I can barley type! but anyway if i want to talk to you I will otherwise nope im just dandy I don't need to bother people with my troubles.
That broken record in my mind again just wont shut off. So I shall lay there thinking all night again... how pleasant.
Well my cats ran away...gone for good I think. My baby kitty Cuddles my little girl is gone!!!!! =(
I will be up very late tonight and into the morning, I have alot of work to do...
♥La Shawn
LONG ENTRY: It's mainly just for me anyway so I don't care if you read it or not thats ok with me =)
Well let's see today was...ok I was going to go back to school I would have made 4th period but I decided after a trip to starbucks nah... just go home now trust me my mom forgot to call the school and clear today's absents but thats ok something else I must deal with though, she has got enough on her plate she doesn't need my problems.
I am somewhat sleepy yet not, I went to bed around almost 4am then got up at 6am for a 9:15 appointment... intresting I was almost eatten alive by this gross looking red and black spider... not kidding about the spider kidding about getting eatten alive...
My Grandma made a cake...I didn't want it it was yellow with white frosting, I like carrot because the carrots are just to cute that are drawn on top and white with chocolate frosting I will eat that. But I did have a bananna! she had oranges but I like red apples. uhmmm I get to go pick a new sweater this weekend ♥ so that should be entertaining. I for some reason missed school...I am just lifeless right now to lazy I worked a little on some makeups for dance WHICH I have another one to do for today's absents... yay more work for me which means more stress more deadlines that I will miss and more fed up teachers...trust me soon enough you will get annoyed with me people and then thats my sign of it's time to go. See you knew I couldn't have a happy ending entry right? it has to be a woe is me life sucks let me pull the trigger type thing. What did you expect something like this,
" OH MY GOD today was like the best day ever! I wish I could redo it!"
uh...no not gonna happen. Christmas is in 24days? and I still have to get out and get candy for all my teachers and friends. This will be my last year doing this...=( how sad. But you know im coming back to visit next year and well do like the same thing come on now... it's me.
I now...let me sound like a Grinch and say this It's not like how it was when I was really little, all excitement and holiday cheer, lights on the house Debbie little Dave and I all hanging the lights arguing over whether or not the icecicles should go in the window...that feeling sorta went out the window one very sad year...where the only lights we put up were one string in the window...and we never really wanted to turn them on anyway...We just didn't care. We pretty much stuck to ourself's stayed inside the house because we had nothing really else better to do. How...sad if you knew the story.
It was a quiet Christmas...I didn't even want to get up on christmas day. Not want to get up on Christmas? now that is sad. I was heartbroken... all of us were in our own way. I again sounding like a Grinch hated that Christmas. I hated that New Year. It was a sad time for everyone, but what we had to do and was sorta hard to pull off was we HAD to try to be happy, not just for ourselves but Little Dave needed us to be strong for him we had to be...poor baby. Moving on...This is making me teary eyed already...
Why am I typing this...why all of a sudden do I think about that one Christmas that one that should be forgot? It's hard to...really hard.
I hate the holidays...Shoot me now I'm worst then the Grinch. It just doesn't feel Merry anymore. But what I do enjoy is seeing the smiles on everyone else's faces when they are given a little candy packet. That warm's my heart alot.
People are already annoyed with me but who care's let them be these are my problems whatever they may be and I don't have to share them with you and I wont I should have never shared them in the first place really, Problems cause more problems. I should have never let anyone behind my concret wall...I was safe back here safe...now im not so sure. Maybe I should have never opened my big fat mouth...nice one La Shawn nice.
Be fed up with me, stress yourself out go right ahead, it's just going to kill you faster right? stress kills.
Then why arn't I dead yet!
my hand's are cold and freezing! I can barley type! but anyway if i want to talk to you I will otherwise nope im just dandy I don't need to bother people with my troubles.
That broken record in my mind again just wont shut off. So I shall lay there thinking all night again... how pleasant.
Well my cats ran away...gone for good I think. My baby kitty Cuddles my little girl is gone!!!!! =(
I will be up very late tonight and into the morning, I have alot of work to do...
♥La Shawn