What a fucking mess!
I had two job interviews this week. And you know what? I have no idea how they went!!! I was honest, professional, charming and semi-graceful. What can I tell you?! They both seemed very interested in me and impressed with my experience and background. So why do I feel like I could strangle someone?
I didn't get to bed until after 12 last night and thus didn't sleep very well. My alarm failed to wake me up. It went off, but it's the radio and I just slept through it. So I got up a half hour late. No worries, I managed to still get to Capitola early enough to grab a croissant at a bakery and have 15 minutes to spare! It is raining. It is ugly out there. And as the cliche' goes, No one knows how to drive when it rains! Highway 17 was okay this morning, but the drive back was slightly more precarious. I was able to stop at a yarn shop up the street from where I interviewed and bought 3 skeins of bamboo yarn! I want to make myself a chain-looped scarf (with teardrop shaped loops). I am excited by this project!
The weather was so awful I wasn't even remotely tempted to check out the beaches or shopping village. This is shocking!
I guess I just wanted to grab some lunch and head home. For some reason I just wasn't comfortable being in Capitola today. Maybe it had something to do with being so dressed up. So I headed home. I stopped in Santa Clara to see if I could beat the lunch crowd to this cafe, but alas, no dice! I went straight home after that.
I walk in the door to the phone ringing...and they hung up as soon as I grabbed the phone! Bitches! Then, I go to the bathroom and it rings again (it never fails! I swear my ass and the phone are somehow connected!), this time they leave a message. I call them right back. It was a company asking for an interview. They sought me, I didn't contact them. I'm suspicious of the offer. They want me to come in for a "career overview" first and then tell me about base salary and commisions. When I heard this I was immediately "EW!" about it, but scheduled it anyway. What have I got to lose, right?! Just two hours, possibly.
So, I'm on the phone with this gal from this company and I'm trying to write down the address, phone number, etc...and our wonderful tabby cat decides to turn into a monster of terror! She gets all in my face and starts swatting at my hands and face! I tried to push her off the table, but I'm trying to write shit down and she starts biting me and trying to steal my pencil and chew on the notepad I'm using. I was gettin increasingly pissed off as the gal was assuring me it wasn't a sales position, but a consulting one and Carrot the war mongerer was craving human flesh!
The moment I hung up I smacked her little paw away from me and grabbed a small pitcher of water and threw it on her! I am usually very patient with her (and all animals). I would never hurt an animal unless my life was in danger or something. But she got me so fucking pissed off! I haven't been that angry in ages. I then dumped another pitcher of water on her and chased her into my bedroom and shut the door. I needed space and to breathe!
I was starving, too. And I was also stuck in the middle of a coordinating nightmare! I'm trying to meet up with two friends who are too fucking flexible and love to leave the details to me! Why?!!!! Just fucking answer already! So, still haven't nailed down ANY details on our meeting for Tuesday. Damn! I head out of the house to mail a letter and grab some food. I was gone maybe 20 minutes. I get home and notice UPS near our driveway and think, "Yay! My Old Navy order has come!" I get to the door and there's an attempt notice. Fuck! I grab it and run out to the UPS truck. Nobody's there. I wait, food in hand, in the rain for five minutes. Finally I say, "Fuck this!" and go inside. I keep checking to see if maybe the UPS driver is in my building somewhere (it's a very small building, 40 something apts), but he's not. I eat my food and go back otuside to check again...truck's gone!
So I'll have to see if they catch me tomorrow. I have this long standing issue with UPS. I could step out of my door to go to the laundry room for 5 minutes after being home all day and night and I'll walk back to find a damned attempt notice! Bastards! Because of this I usually just have B pick up the item in question at the distribution center because he goes there every morning for work. I should be home all day tomorrow though, so hopefully...seriously, hopefully I'll get my damned package! I want my new coat and sweaters!!!
Again I come in and Carrot loses her ever lovin' mind and gives me cancer of my last nerve!!! I spray her with her favorite water bottle of vinegar and water...mobster style! Blam! Blam! Blam! Blam! Blam! Blam! Does it help? Does it bollacks!!! She is a menace...to me only! The moment B gets home she's miss purrfect! I need a damned Cat Whisperer!!! I can't take it anymore!
The last two weeks she's been in hibernation mode. She'll sleep on our bed as soon as I get up until around 1-3...yesterday she got up at the crack of 4PM! I much prefer that to today's behavior!
I am still coming down off of my anger...it's not a good feeling at all. And did I mention everyone driving ridiculously? Like blocking a driveway, but just sitting there chatting on your cell? Or not know which lane you want so you drive right down the middle of the street? Honestly!!! And it's as though everyone's forgotten that they made it a law to have your headlights on when your windshield wipers are on! Hardly anyone had their lights on. Gosh!
I sit here applying for hundreds of jobs every week. And I feel like I need a fucking vacation! I'm exhausted after today...and it's only 3! I'm done. I've been getting such negativity from everyone lately. I'm sick of it. I can't be all happy-go-lucky all of the time and certainly not when people are shitting on my cherios! Bastards! I post to vent. I post in communities because I have something to share with the interest of that community in mind...but people are fucking rude and suspicious of everything. One person actually said something like, "this is similar to something you posted before...are you getting paid in some way...bitch and moan." When I assure them that I am not being paid or getting anything out of it (at all, not even community support/interest) they still suspect something! WTF?! What has happened to everyone this week????????????????????????????????
Perhaps I need a break from said community. I'll go back to posting in my own. No one reads it, but at least I'm not suspected of misconduct! Gawd! I give up. I'm too tired to even take on people like that right now. My stomach is killing me from my outburst and greasy food and yuck! I just wanna sleep for a day or two!