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LJ Idol - Week 18: Adored

Mar 17, 2010 15:24

LJ Idol - Week 18: Adored

I think it would be fair to say that everyone who knew him loved my cousin Chris. He was a big, dopey bear-cub of a young man who came from a large family, all of whom are prone to openness and friendliness.

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lj idol, chris, hunter

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lyrical_liessss March 17 2010, 21:01:47 UTC

I agree. It broke my heart. :(

notbatman March 17 2010, 21:22:54 UTC

Thanks. It still breaks my heart a little too.

notbatman March 17 2010, 21:20:27 UTC

Thank you. It's funny, now that it's out, to realize how much it's been chewing me up for the past few days.

spydielives March 17 2010, 21:05:37 UTC

*nodding*

I want to leave more of a comment, but there is too much for me to sum up, and too little to add to a conversation without coming across as trite. But I do understand why (I think) you felt you needed to add your last comment.

notbatman March 17 2010, 21:25:04 UTC

I totally get that and I do appreciate it.

shadowwolf13 March 17 2010, 22:18:57 UTC

I have no words. I'd say I'm sorry but that doesn't seem like enough. I hope that getting it out brings you healing.

notbatman March 18 2010, 13:00:43 UTC

Thanks. It's been a rough couple days while it's been rolling around again, but I did get a strange rush of relief almost immediately after hitting the "Post entry" button.

theafaye March 18 2010, 04:20:53 UTC

Suicide adds a whole extra level to the grieving process that you don't have to deal with when they die from any other causes. No wonder you're still processing it.

notbatman March 18 2010, 13:03:52 UTC

Yeah, I get that. It's just so damned random and there's just nothing you can do if someone means it. And it makes you look at everyone a little differently.

I don't know. For now, things feel settled again. I've thought that a few times though.

rattsu March 18 2010, 11:01:27 UTC

Some stories just needs to be told, there's no need to apologize. It was a bloody good entry. Seriously. You managed to pull me through the whole confusing process of something I have luckily yet to experience. Thank you.

notbatman March 18 2010, 13:11:32 UTC

Thank you. I've written about his death and my own reactions before, but I've never actually stepped through it all quite this way. After the fact and trying to remove myself a little, I think it was interesting how the information came in waves and how the story unfolded to us. I wonder what would have happened if we'd known everything right away.

I guess I'm glad we didn't.