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I don't even remember the last time I thought about LiveJournal, let alone the last time I was moved to actually post in it.
I think the end is near, for Bryan and I. I feel it in my bones, his serious discontent with me. I make him incredibly unhappy and he tries so hard to love me in spite of that.
I don't know how much longer I can sit by, being this fucked up, negative and bitchy person knowing he's fighting to stay attracted to me. I can be better than this. I can be better for him.
Why is it so hard to change? He'll reply with "it's easy. it's all in your head." and I'll roll my eyes and ignore his comment.
It is in my head.
Can someone fix my head, so I can fix my heart?
I think the end is near, for Bryan and I. I feel it in my bones, his serious discontent with me. I make him incredibly unhappy and he tries so hard to love me in spite of that.
I don't know how much longer I can sit by, being this fucked up, negative and bitchy person knowing he's fighting to stay attracted to me. I can be better than this. I can be better for him.
Why is it so hard to change? He'll reply with "it's easy. it's all in your head." and I'll roll my eyes and ignore his comment.
It is in my head.
Can someone fix my head, so I can fix my heart?