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It took a huge slap in the face for me to realize how badly my insecurities were getting the better of me. I was sabotaging my well-being and the best relationship I've ever been in.
But it's all better now, simple as that. I need to fix these things myself, I need to run, eat better, be less lazy. It's the first time I've truly come to this realization. It goes beyond my excuses of, 'Oh, I'm not self-disciplined enough,' 'Oh, my classes were hard today, I need to nap...' etc etc etc. I complain and bitch to the point where I hate myself, and why? This time I'm doing it to myself, and this time I'm fixing it myself.
I don't care about losing weight, I care about being fit, being in shape again, feeling good about myself physically and mentally. I miss it. I was never this girl. When did I become this girl?
Well, I'm not anymore. There's no reason for me to be.
But it's all better now, simple as that. I need to fix these things myself, I need to run, eat better, be less lazy. It's the first time I've truly come to this realization. It goes beyond my excuses of, 'Oh, I'm not self-disciplined enough,' 'Oh, my classes were hard today, I need to nap...' etc etc etc. I complain and bitch to the point where I hate myself, and why? This time I'm doing it to myself, and this time I'm fixing it myself.
I don't care about losing weight, I care about being fit, being in shape again, feeling good about myself physically and mentally. I miss it. I was never this girl. When did I become this girl?
Well, I'm not anymore. There's no reason for me to be.