[47] I can never go home to the girl that I was
I feel like I should be saying something after all of that. Like... it's funny how much we remember about being kids, or maybe how much we don't. Or how much what we think we remember is not actually the way things were.
It's funny, what changes and what doesn't, when we've grown up.
[She looks ready to say something more, and changes her mind. The next part is visible to the people listed, but not to each other. ...Also to anyone else Cissie talked to that I may have forgotten. Maybe Sylar?]
[Private | Visible to Isaac, Howie, Molly, Rhade, Kon, B'Elanna, Buffy, Una, Martha, Kirk, Miss Parker, Tim and Shego]
I'm not entirely sure what I said to everyone, but I know I didn't have much of a filter. It didn't occur to me that maybe there were some things I shouldn't talk about. I could lie and say it wasn't all true, but it was. And I was... it took me a few more years to figure out that my mother's far from perfect. I forgot how much--Never mind. I'd ask if we can just pretend it didn't happen, but I'm not actually sure that I want to. So here's your chance to ask a question, if you have one.
[Why yes. She anticipates questions about that superhero training. :| She's willing to bite that bullet.]
[Private to Una]
...I didn't have much socializing when I was that age. Kids don't really want to be friends with the girl in class with the overbearing mother who has to be best at everything, and the only adults I knew were my mother or my teachers. It didn't even occur to me that maybe O'Brien wasn't completely trustworthy. I didn't think adults lied, unless they were "bad guys," but don't ask how I thought I'd know who was "bad" and who wasn't. I think I figured my mother would tell me. I guess my point is--I'm not even mad at O'Brien, because I'm kind of disgusted with my mother and myself. I know I shouldn't be, but... that's where I am.
[Private to Sveta]
You're probably sick of hearing this, but how are you?
[Private to Rhade]
Thank you, for everything you did. ...My father died when I was five. It meant a lot to her--to me--that you took an interest.
[Private to Shego]
[AWKWARD PAUSE]
Thank you. I... kind of wish there had been someone around to say that stuff to me when I actually was that age.