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Everyone has certain particular things they can do to help themselves mentally feel better, if they allow themselves to. I've been rather out of sorts lately so it is comforting to know that when I absolutely have to, I can bring myself back and remind myself of who I am. I took a personal day today. I had no intention of doing it. After a weekend of confusion and lack of desire to get out of bed, I planned on just waking up, going to class, doing all the things I was supposed to be doing, and try to just not be miserable. However, I accidentally woke up 15 minutes before my first class so decided it wasn't worth trying to be on time and go to it. Then I decided it wasn't worth it to go to either of my other classes or the class I am a writing fellow for. So I emailed a couple of the profs and told them I wasn't feeling well, got ready, and decided to go get better. Spontaneity is one of the things that helps me so it's good I decided all of this at the last minute. I took a drive up the New Hampshire sea coast. I stopped at Hampton Beach first, and walked around a little. But it was cold and windy so I didn't stay long. Then I headed up through Rye and saw all the pretty houses and the beautiful shoreline. Of course this led me to the Wentworth by the Sea. I never go there anymore. But I drove through the parking lot and admired it. I somehow ended up in Portsmouth center after that, unintentionally. However, since I was there I decided to park my car and walk around. I went to a really cute coffee shop/cafe and had a latte and some tirimisu. After walking around for a bit I got back in my car and drove back. I got my car washed and now I'm back here. I am feeling extremely rejuvinated and far happier and more relaxed than I have been in quite some time. Now I think I will go to the gym. Usually I only go when I am a. upset or b. my friends make me. But today I am going to go just for the sake of going. We all get swept up in things and lose sight of what actually matters. Sometimes it's nice to just remind yourself of yourself.