entwined thoughts
1
I used to care a lot about what people thought of me, I had this well curated image I liked to project, as I grew older I realized wasn't fooling anyone, so instead I a funny character, at parties I would put on the comedienne hat and perform a monologue about how my ex wanted to pee on me, how I love being called fat an insult, smoking crack with older men, maybe a skit on my bad relationship with my mother (with voices and all), etc. I am not cool, or intelligent, or beautiful so I settled for being kooky.
2
I have a new cat, i named him Señor Gomez. He was fucking annoying when he was a kitty.
He knocks over the trashcans, destroys the house plants, takes underwear out of the hamper, the fucker even chews on my hair.
But we get along better now that I got used to my apartment being a shithole.
Also it helps that he is so goddam cute.
3
Do I use livejournal because I am stubborn or because it makes me feel cool to be retro oldschool?
4
I am now working at "cause marketing" agency, it is just like an ad agency minus the bullshit, except it isn't.
5
I forgot to pay the cable and got my service cancelled, I have been having this debate with myself: should I continue to pay for it? If I stop paying I would be cool because cool people don't watch tv (ha!), and I would have time to read ayn rand books and whatever those fuckers do, on the other hand I do enjoy wasting my time and rotting my brain, it makes me stupid, I know, but where would I be without my witty remarks about b list celibrities?
[photos: Phyllis Diller and Señor Gomez]