deal
It's been a week now since Josh died. I still can't take it all in. It's just overwhelming. It seems like there's too many memories to ever remember all of them. And maybe there are. It's so fucking scary, because we already lost him, and I can't bear it. I'm a realist and this just isn't fucking real to me. My whole self is sad. I looked at Shey one day, and I said, "I'm just so sad."