something's missing. what's missing? i think i've figured it out.
and what exactly is missing? it's something that is mental and emotional. it was a staple back around this time last year. it was a drama...not like a 'oh my god, you are cheating on me' kind of drama. it was something else. it was 'i want to know how your mind works because i think you have a personality disorder' drama, and 'once i figure out how your mind works i wanna ask you an incessant amount of questions' drama.
that daily element is missing. well, actually...it isn't. it's been replaced with childish back-and-forth, ha-ha drama. it's disgusting. it's annoying. i need to just ignore it.
yet, have i come full circle? meaning, have i made peace with myself in certain situations and relationships of the present and past? i'd like to say i have, but i haven't. grudges and haunting nostalgia keep that circle from being closed. it keeps the fog looming there, over my mind.
also, i have become much more sensitive and i don't know why. reading stories or seeing something cute shoots a pang of...i say sadness and happiness mixed together...but i don't know why it's there.
Kazaa's being a piece of shit. i've gotten rid of two Trojans within a week's time. now we have norton internet security, which i must say, is helping. there's so much shit and threats out there in the world wide web. disgusting.
that daily element is missing. well, actually...it isn't. it's been replaced with childish back-and-forth, ha-ha drama. it's disgusting. it's annoying. i need to just ignore it.
yet, have i come full circle? meaning, have i made peace with myself in certain situations and relationships of the present and past? i'd like to say i have, but i haven't. grudges and haunting nostalgia keep that circle from being closed. it keeps the fog looming there, over my mind.
also, i have become much more sensitive and i don't know why. reading stories or seeing something cute shoots a pang of...i say sadness and happiness mixed together...but i don't know why it's there.
Kazaa's being a piece of shit. i've gotten rid of two Trojans within a week's time. now we have norton internet security, which i must say, is helping. there's so much shit and threats out there in the world wide web. disgusting.