oh god...
help.
it has surfaced. it wasn't supposed to. now it's out there and in my mind and infesting it. no no no. this can't be! THIS has never happened to me before. and it's not that i don't like this newly infested thought/feeling, but frankly...it scares the fucking piss out of me.
and i don't wanna fuck everything up...cos it will all come crashing down. horribly.
i can't take itttttttt....help. help!!