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onapostcard And like the seasons you are also,
And though in your winter you deny your spring,
Yet spring, reposing within you, smiles in her drowsiness and is not offended.
--Kahlil Gibran, the Prophet
Jess,
One of these days I'm going to be gone and someone will find all these postcards to you and think I'm insane. I found this in a little gas station in a tiny town in Indiana. The flowers made me think of you.
We're trying to figure out a way to get Dean out of his deal. I'm sorta losing hope all the time and I'm trying so damn hard not to. Right now the best solution we've got going is to let Dean die and let Ruby drag him out of hell, bring him back as a demon. That's only one step above losing Dean forever. I went off on Ruby today and half of me thinks she completely deserved it. She likes to piss me off.
Right now we're headed to look for the Colt. Bela stole it and I'm trying to remember why killing her would be bad. I can see you in my head and you get this ridiculous cute look of disapproval on your face, like that Halloween I didn't want to dress up. You didn't make me dress up though. Okay...no shooting Bela. At the moment anyway.
I miss you and I love you,
Sam.